"She has temper enough, in all conscience!" rejoined Josephine, and she
related the scene preceding her withdrawal.
"Bad! bad!" ejaculated the senior, with a solemn shake of the head. "I
admire spirit in a girl; but a woman should have no temper!"
CHAPTER III.
In a crowded school-room, on a glorious October morning, a student
was penning, with slow and heavy fingers, an Italian exercise. A
physiognomist's eye would have wandered with comparative carelessness
over the faces,--so various in feature and character--by which she
was surrounded, and found in hers, subject for curious speculation;
wondering at the contradictory evidence her countenance and form gave
of her age; the one, sombre in its thoughtfulness, its dark eyes
piercing through his, into his soul, said twenty--perhaps thirty--the
lithe figure and rounded limbs, sixteen; but most, he would have
marvelled at the listlessness of her attitude; the lack of interest in
her occupation and external objects, when every line, in brow, eyes
and mouth, bespoke energy; a spirit strong to do or dare; and which,
when in arms, would achieve its purpose, or perish in the attempt.
The hand moved more and more sluggishly, and the page was marred by
blots and erasures. Thought had the crayon, and dark were the shades
that fell upon the canvass. "Seventeen to-day! Who remembers that it
is my birth-day? There are none here to know or care. If I were to
die to-morrow, there is not a creature who would shed a tear above my
corpse. I wish I could die! They say such thoughts are sinful, but
annihilation is preferable to an aimless, loveless existence. Oh!
this intolerable aching, yearning for affection--it is eating into my
soul! gnawing, insatiable longing! can I not quiet you for an instant?
I have intellect--genius--so says the world. I have sacrificed to
knowledge, reason and poesy;--praying, first, for happiness, then
comfort, then forgetfulness--to cast myself down, the same heart-sick,
famished creature! Our examination was an imposing affair. The elite
of intelligence and fashion honored us with their presence. The prizes
for which others had expended sleepless nights and toilsome days, were
for me, who had scarcely put forth an effort; and as the music swelled
out to celebrate my victory--blent with the applause of my critics,
my heart beat! I had not felt it before for a long, long time,--and
as in a lightning flash, I saw what I might--what I would have been,
had the sunshine of love been continued to me. But the pitchy cloud
rolled over the dazzling opening, and I was again a stranded wreck
upon a barren shingle--the wailing monotone of the deep in my ear. I
read to them, that a tile was once cast upon an acanthus root, and the
hardy plant thrust its arms in every direction, until they felt the
light, then coiled in spiral waves, to convert their oppressor into a
thing of beauty;--and bade them recognize in the Corinthian capital, an
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