He had just emerged from one of those crucial experiences of life, which, more than the turning of the earth upon its axis, serve to age a human being. For perhaps the first time in the brief span of his remembrance, he had scrutinized himself in the pitiless light of an intelligence higher than his own everyday consciousness; and the sight of that meaner self, striving to run to cover, had not been pleasant. Just why his late interview with Andrew Bolton should have precipitated this event, he could not possibly have explained to any one—and least of all to himself. He had begun, logically enough, with an illuminating review of the motives which led him into the ministry; they were a sorry lot, on the whole; but his subsequent ambitions appeared even worse. For the first time, he perceived his own consummate selfishness set over against the shining renunciations of his mother. Then, step by step, he followed his career in Brookville: his smug satisfaction in his own good looks; his shallow pride and vanity over the vapid insincerities he had perpetrated Sunday after Sunday in the shabby pulpit of the Brookville church; his Pharisaical relations with his people; his utter misunderstanding of their needs. All this proved poignant enough to force the big drops to his forehead.... There were other aspects of himself at which he scarcely dared look in his utter abasement of spirit; those dark hieroglyphics of the beast-self which appear on the whitest soul. He had supposed himself pure and saintly because, forsooth, he had concealed the arena of these primal passions beneath the surface of this outward life, chaining them there like leashed tigers in the dark.... Two faces of women appeared to be looking on, while he strove to unravel the snarl of his self-knowledge. Lydia’s unworldly face, wearing a faint nimbus of unimagined self-immolation, and Fanny’s—full of love and solicitude, the face which he had almost determined to forget. He was going to Lydia. Every newly awakened instinct of his manhood bade him go. She came to him at once, and without pretense of concealment began to speak of her father. She trembled a little as she asked: “He told you who he was?” Without waiting for his answer she gravely corrected herself. “I should have said, who _we_ are.” She smiled a faint apology: “I have always been called Lydia Orr; it was my mother’s name. I was adopted into my uncle’s family, after father—went to prison.” Her blue eyes met his pitying gaze without evasion. “I am glad you know,” she said. “I think I shall be glad—to have every one know. I meant to tell them all, at first. But when I found—” “I know,” he said in a low voice. Then because as yet he had said nothing to comfort her, or himself; and because every word that came bubbling to the surface appeared banal and inadequate, he continued silent, gazing at her and marveling at her perfect serenity—her absolute poise.