“It will be a relief,” she sighed, “When every one knows. He dislikes
to be watched. I have been afraid—I could not bear to have him know how
they hate him.”
“Perhaps,” he forced himself to say, “they will not hate him, when they
know how you— Lydia, you are wonderful!”
She looked up startled and put out her hand as if to prevent him from
speaking further.
But the words came in a torrent now:
“How you must despise me! I despise myself. I am not worthy, Lydia; but
if you can care—”
“Stop!” she said softly, as if she would lay the compelling finger of
silence upon his lips. “I told you I was not like other women. Can’t
you see—?”
“You must marry me,” he urged, in a veritable passion of self-giving.
“I want to help you! You will let me, Lydia?”
She shook her head.
“You could not help me; I am better alone.”
She looked at him, the glimmer of a smile dawning in her eyes.
“You do not love me,” she said; “nor I you. You are my friend. You will
remain my friend, I hope?”
She arose and held out her hand. He took it without a word. And so they
stood for a moment; each knowing without need of speech what the other
was thinking; the man sorry and ashamed because he could not deny the
truth of her words; and she compassionately willing to draw the veil of
a soothing silence over his hurts.
“I ought to tell you—” he began.
But she shook her head:
“No need to tell me anything.”
“You mean,” he said bitterly, “that you saw through my shallow
pretenses all the while. I know now how you must have despised me.”
“Is it nothing that you have asked me—a convict’s daughter—to be your
wife?” she asked. “Do you think I don’t know that some men would have
thanked heaven for their escape and never spoken to me again? I can’t
tell you how it has helped to hearten me for what must come. I shall
not soon forget that you offered me your self—your career; it would
have cost you that. I want you to know how much I—appreciate what you
have done, in offering me the shelter of an honest name.”
He would have uttered some unavailing words of protest, but she checked
him.
“We shall both be glad of this, some day,” she predicted gravely....
“There is one thing you can do for me,” she added: “Tell them. It will
be best for both of us, now.”
It was already done, he said, explaining his motives in short,
disjointed sentences.
Then with a feeling of relief which he strove to put down, but which
nevertheless persisted in making itself felt in a curious lightening of
his spirits, he was again walking rapidly and without thought of his
destination. Somber bars of crimson and purple crossed the west, and
behind them, flaming up toward the zenith in a passionate splendor of
light, streamed long, golden rays from out the heart of that glory upon
which no human eye may look. The angry wind had fallen to quiet, and
higher up, floating in a sea of purest violet, those despised and
flouted rags of clouds were seen, magically changed to rose and silver.
Chapter XXIII.
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