“Had I gone away with you as I consented to do, the world would have
said, she but follows her fatal inheritance—like mother like
daughter. There were some bitter rebellious hours, when that thought
came to me. But to-day light has shone upon me, and I know there is
a law of Divine Heredity which is greater and more powerful than any
tendency we derive from parents or grandparents. I have believed
much in creeds all my life; and in the hour of great trials I found I
was leaning on broken reeds. I have now ceased to look to men or
books for truth—I have found it in my own soul. I acknowledge no
unfortunate tendencies from any earthly inheritance; centuries of
sinful or weak ancestors are as nothing beside the God within. The
divine and immortal _me_ is older than my ancestral tree; it is as
old as the universe. It is as old as the first great Cause of which
it is a part. Strong with this consciousness, I am prepared to meet
the world alone, and unafraid from this day onward. When I think of
the optimistic temperament, the good brain, and the vigorous body
which were naturally mine, and then of the wretched being who was my
legitimate sister, I know that I was rightly generated, however
unfortunately born, just as she was wrongly generated though legally
born.
“My father, I am told, married into a family whose crest is traced
back to the tenth century. I carry a coat-of-arms older yet—the
Cross; it dates back eighteen hundred years—yes, many thousand years,
and so I feel myself the nobler of the two. Had you been more of a
disciple of Christ, and less of a disciple of man, you would have
realised this truth long ago, as I realise it to-day. No man should
dare stand before his fellows as a revealer of divine knowledge until
he has penetrated the inmost recesses of his own soul, and found
God’s holy image there; and until he can show others the way to the
same wonderful discovery. The God you worshipped was far away in the
heavens, so far that he could not come to you and save you from your
baser self in the hour of temptation. But the true God has been
miraculously revealed to me. He dwells within; one who has found
Him, will never debase His temple.
“Though there is no legal obstacle now in the path to our union,
there is a spiritual one which is insurmountable. _I no longer love
you_. I am sorry for you, but that is all. You belonged to my
yesterday—you can have no part in my to-day. The man who tempted me
in my weak hour to go lower, could not help me to go higher. And my
face is set toward the heights.
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