An Engagement of Convenience: A NovelZangwill, Louis
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An Engagement of Convenience: A Novel
Zangwill, Louis
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"He is in love with Lady Lakeden!" It escaped from her lips at last, and
then she remained ashen--trembling.
Nay, surely he had loved Lady Lakeden in the old days--loved her
secretly and despairingly, seeing her often, but too poor to woo her!
Moreover, Lady Lakeden had then loved another. "Yes, yes, that is the
truth--the truth!" she cried; "And now he has been seeing her again
daily, and the old love has been reborn!"
A pall descended over Alice's spirit. What a cruel situation! Here was
Wyndham pledged to a woman he could not care for, yet in love with
another whose whole heart was with the dear husband that had been taken
from her. "He is struggling bravely to be true to me--I see it all
now--he is breaking his heart. It is my duty to release him from his
word--ah! no, no!" She shuddered and covered her face, shaken and
shaken. "Even if I gave him his freedom," she argued presently, clinging
on to the wreck with might and main, "it would only be freedom to find
despair. Lady Lakeden loved her husband. I know she is great and true.
She knows he is mine. I trust her--I must trust her--I will pray for
strength to trust her. Heaven help me!--Heaven help me!"
A terrible pang of jealousy smote her. Detesting herself for it, she
tried hard to repress the flood of bitter hatred she felt rising in her
against Lady Lakeden. Poor Lady Lakeden! She had suffered enough and was
blameless. She could not help it if Wyndham loved her.
An overwhelming curiosity to know what manner of woman Lady Lakeden was,
took possession of her. Of course, she was young and beautiful. But what
colour were her eyes? Were they large and deep and brilliant? What
expression had she habitually? What colour was her hair? And was it
abundant? And how arranged? Was she slim and tall? How did she dress?
And in what costume was Wyndham painting her? Were not these the
questions that had been a thousand times on her lips, and yet remained
unuttered?
And why had she not asked of him these questions as clearly and boldly
as she had thought them? Had there been some obscure suspicion in her
mind all along, and she had feared to embarrass her affianced husband?
Poor Wyndham! She told herself she had the most perfect understanding of
his mind. She held him in honour as a noble gentleman, and knew surely
that he would fret his heart away rather than wound her by word or deed.
She would have put her hand in the fire for the certainty that he would
never withdraw from the compact; that he would go through with the
marriage, and die rather than relax the effort to simulate perfect
happiness in their after life.
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