Hungary -- History -- Revolution, 1918-1919 -- Personal narratives; Tormay, Cécile, 1876-1937 -- Diaries
On the other side of the tunnel I felt as if I had emerged at the
antipodes. There the town was quiet, so quiet that I could hear the echo
of my steps in the streets of Buda. The single-storeyed houses cuddled
peacefully on the side of the hill. There people will not know what has
happened till to-morrow, when they will read it over their breakfast.
In one of the low windows some flower-pots stood between the curtains. A
clock struck in the room, and a young girl started watering the flowers
with a little red watering-can. Doubtless she watered them yesterday at
the same hour and life will be the same for her to-morrow. Meanwhile,
on the other bank of the Danube they shout: Long live the revolution!
Revolution.... Madness! What good can a revolution do now? Nobody takes
it seriously, not even those who made it. Madness! It did me good to
repeat the word, and I began to take heart. Nothing will come of it. The
Hungarian is not a revolutionary—he fights for freedom. Every commotion
in our history of a thousand years has been a war of liberation. And
freedom has come: independence has fallen from its own accord into the
nation’s lap....
A light already shone in one of the little houses. Under the hanging
lamp, round a circular table, people sat peacefully. They knew of
nothing.... In one of the yards someone played an accordion. The
homely, suburban music, the fatigue of my long silent walk, weakened
the awful impressions of the other shore. All that had tortured me was
disappearing, and my thoughts were only of hanging lamps and accordions.
The density of the mist increased with the evening, and when I reached
the old military cemetery it had nearly absorbed the outlines of all
objects. Over the collapsing graves, between the many little rotting
wooden crosses, the tombstones dissolved like ghosts in the fog. In Pest
by now the mist would be a yellow reeking fog, while here it became a
thing of beauty. Nowadays everything that is beautiful in the country
turns to filth in Pest.
Again I forgot to pay attention to the road, and my thoughts harped on
what I had lately seen.
It was impossible that a few slums of a single town should make a
revolution when the whole country was against it.... Then, I don’t know
how, I came to think of _The Possessed_—Dostoevski’s wonderful novel.
I remembered a reception which I had attended last winter. We talked
of Russia, Lenin and Bolshevism, and I asked one of Michael Károlyi’s
relations if Károlyi had ever read that book.
“Of course, and he loves it, too. He lent it to me to read.”
There had been curious rumours about Károlyi for some time.
“Is he learning from it how to make a revolution?” I asked, but received
no answer.
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