Hungary -- History -- Revolution, 1918-1919 -- Personal narratives; Tormay, Cécile, 1876-1937 -- Diaries
Off I went, and behind me, just a step behind me, there came the new law.
From this day on, any person attempting to change the republican form of
Government is liable to fifteen years’ hard labour; the instigators and
leaders of such a movement will go to penal servitude for life. But those
who report matters in time shall go free and be duly rewarded.
A white whirlwind swept over the frozen Danube. I went on. The road was
long ... the law followed and caught me not.
* * * * *
_February 10th._
The door of my room opened quietly, and the little German maid looked in
frightened.
“They’ve come again. I have tried to send them away, but they won’t
go....”
This is quite the usual thing nowadays. I jumped up from my writing-desk
and went across the cold drawing-room. There was no lamp in the
ante-room, and in the gloom I saw two soldiers and a civilian near the
door.
“What do you want? Me? From the Housing Office? But you have been over
our flat before!”
They refused to be denied. Fortunately my mother was out of the way
and did not meet them while they were looking over the place. When we
reached my room the civilian produced a note-book and bent over it in
the lamplight on the writing-table. For some minutes he searched for
something in his book, then turned to me suddenly with suspicion in his
eyes:
“Is this your room?”
“Yes.”
“We come from the police. We must search it.”
An unpleasant tremor went through me.
“By what right?” I was on the point of asking, but I thought better of
it. I remembered the hidden silver. The best thing would be to show no
opposition—“After all, if those are your orders....” and I handed him
my keys. One went in this direction, another in that, and I had to keep
my eyes on the hands and pockets of all three. Meanwhile I remembered
with extraordinary rapidity everything I had forgotten to burn. In awful
anguish I thought of these notes, behind the books. What if they found
them? I was thinking so intently about this that I was afraid they might
read my face. Suppose my thoughts were to guide them!... One of the
soldiers looked into the stove and at the same moment I caught sight of
the other extracting cigarettes from a small box and stuffing them into
his pockets. The civilian sat down at the table and pulled out a drawer.
“Do you know anything about the organisation of the counter-revolution?”
“Yes,” I answered ... “I got it from the columns of ‘The People’s
Voice.’” (this is the Socialist’s own paper.)
The stupid round eyes of the man stared at me and suddenly I began to
feel dangerously gay. I took heart and was almost grateful to them for
being so conveniently superficial. Why not give them all my cigarettes?
What nonsense! I pulled myself together and straightened my face.
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