“Yes, all that is a pure matter of indifference to you, is it not?”
continued Chrysis. “You did not love her. It is I that you love. You
have not even listened to what I have just told you. I am sure you
could not repeat a single word. You are absorbed in wondering how my
eyelids are made up, speculating on the sweetness of my mouth, on the
softness of my hair. Ah! how many others know all this! All who have
desired me have had their pleasure upon me: men, young men, old men,
children, women, young girls. I have refused nobody, do you understand?
For seven years, Demetrios, I have only slept alone three nights. Count
how many lovers that makes. Two thousand five hundred and more. I do
not include those that came in the daytime. Last year I danced naked
before twenty thousand persons, and I know that you were not one of
them. Do you think that I hide myself? Ah! for what, pray? All the
women have seen me in the bath. All the men have seen me in bed. You
alone, you shall never see me. I refuse you. I refuse you. You shall
never know anything of what I am, of what I feel, of my beauty, of my
love! You are an abominable man, fatuous, cruel, insensible, cowardly!
I don’t know why one of us has not had enough hatred to kill you both
in one another’s arms, first you, and afterwards the queen.”
Demetrios quietly took her by the two arms, and, without answering a
word, bent her backwards with violence.
She had a moment’s anguish; but suddenly she stiffened her knees,
stiffened her elbows, backed a little, and said in a low voice:
“Ah! I am not afraid of that, Demetrios! you shall never take me by
force, were I as feeble as an amorous virgin and you as strong as a son
of Atlas. You desire not only the satisfaction of your own senses, but
chiefly of mine. Moreover, you want to see me from head to foot,
because you believe that I am beautiful, and I am beautiful indeed. Now
the moon gives less light than my twelve waxen torches. It is almost
dark here. And then it is not customary to undress upon the quay. I
could not dress myself again without the help of my slave. Let me free,
you hurt my arms.”
They were silent for a few minutes; then Demetrios answered:
“We must have done with this, Chrysis. You know well that I shall not
force you. But let me follow you. However proud you are, you would pay
dearly for the glory of refusing Demetrios.”
Chrysis still kept silence. He continued more gently:
“What are you afraid of?”
“You are accustomed to the love of others. Do you know what ought to be
given to a courtesan who does not love?”
He became impatient.
“I do not ask you to love me. I am tired of being loved. I do not want
to be loved. I ask you to abandon yourself. For that, I will give you
all the gold in the world. I have it in Egypt.”
“I have it in my hair. I am tired of gold. I don’t want gold. I want
but three things. Will you give them to me?”
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