But of course, he understood, on cool analysis, that this really settled
nothing. That exciting spectacle, which seemed to make the whole process
so extremely concrete, represented a hope, nothing more. And the more
this hope was scrutinized, the less substantial it seemed to become.
Walking safely home in the golden afternoon, Charles suddenly recalled,
with cold annoyance, a remark Donald had made, after his second walk
with Angela in November: "Charlie, she worries me." And Angela, for her
part,--though of course womanly, and hence agreeably plastic in her
affections,--really seemed hardly more attracted to Donald, as yet.
Charles thought he knew the reason, too. With a fresh chill, he recalled
the look the girl had given him, on the corner near Berringer's,
to-day.
Had he really "put her on" to Donald even in the remotest degree? Was it
not highly probable that she, patrolling Washington Street at
four-thirty, had been looking, not for Donald, but for another?
Of course, there could not be the slightest doubt that--for the present,
at least--Angela preferred him to Donald, infinitely, unreasonably. And
Angela usually got what she wanted, too, it seemed. For example, she had
wanted to move her family from Mitchellton to this city, where he,
Charles, lived. And she had moved.
XV
He fell instinctively into a small manoeuvre, which was merely this:
that he quietly shifted forward his public itinerary by quarter of an
hour. Next day, he started rapidly toward the street-cars at quarter
before one, and shot out of Miss Grace's at quarter past four, sharp.
Ultimate detection was certain, of course; but for the moment the
trifling ruse did seem to win a hardly hoped-for respite in the headlong
courtship. Neither on Friday, nor again on Monday, was the Home-Making
Fordette so much as seen. And the next disturbance of the authority's
delicate social scales, and of the author's Line, came, as might be
said, from precisely the opposite direction.
In the Studio, matters had continued to progress backward. Once here,
and the door safely shut, Charles had been steadily at work, the
hymeneal shadow put resolutely from his mind. No writer's time, he had
pledged himself, should go to somber meditations on the cosmic
consequences of a kiss, still less to fruitless bitterness concerning
wasted write-ups, the hardness of Egoettes, etc. Day by day, he had
wooed that subtle calm of the spirit which is the bread and meat of
authors; night by night, expended himself in the service of pure
Letters. And it had all been for nothing.
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