Contrary to explicit resolve, in short, he had been making a fresh
attempt at his new novel, hoping--rather weakly--that his mind wasn't
quite so unsettled as he secretly knew it was. And, once more, he had
been well punished for his rashness. Symptoms of weakness having
developed increasingly through the week just past, on Monday evening
Charles took his medicine, just before supper. Ten thousand words of
brand-new manuscript lay in his drawer there; and he would be lucky if
he could save a thousand of them for the novel that should be.
Of the "line" taken by this second abortive effort, the less said the
better. It suffices to suggest that if Mary Wing had been a totally
different sort of person, it might never have been undertaken at all.
Of all ways of spending the time known among men, unquestionably the
most abominable, the most nerve-wrecking and devilish, is Thinking up a
Book. Charles smoked box after box of cigarettes, couldn't sleep at
night, talked in his sleep when he did, and was growing a scowl between
his brows almost as dark as poor Two-Book McGee's--the interesting Type
that was leading its own life and wished it weren't. The final
conviction of the worthlessness of his work was hardly calculated to
improve the young man's state of mind. He was, indeed, profoundly
discouraged and concerned. For ten weeks now he had been struggling to
isolate a point of view which would at once "carry" all his newer
observations on his Subject, and command the support of his unqualified
conviction. And to-night he seemed further away from his goal than he
had been the day he finished "Bondwomen."
However, what brought Charles's humor to a sudden head this evening,
what precipitated the fury in which Donald Manford found him--Donald,
entering so happy and fine in the evening regalia which the match-making
Mary seemed to clap on him every night nowadays--by chance had not to do
with his own book at all, but with another's.
In short, the young author, very injudiciously in view of his resolve to
think of Egoettes no more, had been dipping into "Marna."
This book of Angela's had long lain as a plague on the mind of Charles.
For a space, he had not returned the book because of the estrangement,
or misunderstanding; for another space, because of the swiftly ripening
intimacy, compelling the general policy of lying low; and now a large
fresh obstacle had risen, in the girl's unfortunate remarks directly
connecting the return of her book with a call. Whether, after that, he
could harden his heart to slip "Marna" back to her by the hand of the
Judge--without any appreciative blossoms, needless to say--remained to
be seen. So long as the situation remained as it was, Charles had
decided simply not to take up the worry at all.
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