"You see--you oughtn't to have come to see me to-day. I--I'm not fit for
society. I tried to warn you. I haven't had time--to get philosophical
yet."
The helper spoke into the dusty closet: "Well, you don't need to get
philosophical with me. I'm pretty mad myself--as far as that goes."
"I wasn't prepared for it--at all.... And then I've been beating my head
against it--like a fool--all afternoon."
Well he knew Mary's horror of weakness, her warranted confidence in her
own self-control. Well he understood her regret for that uniquely sharp
speech of hers. Was it this, a novel impulse to justify herself in his
eyes, that seemed to force her on, beyond his expectation and against
her own will?
"But don't suppose I went there expecting to have my own way about
everything--manage them around like children. I didn't. I went
respectfully. I went to beg. But it was no use."
Silence: and then the hard voice went on rapidly:--
"She and Donald had talked it all over, and decided that it would be
best for his career to go to New York. She and Donald ... I _did_ think
that, as I was planning Donald's work when she was still in short
dresses, my opinion might have some weight with her. And I thought, just
as you did, that something might be saved if they stayed here for the
present--kept the house and all the rest of it. And then, of course, I
lost my temper--that makes twice.... I reminded her how she had told me
once that nothing could induce _her_ to leave her mother, as a widow....
What was the use? Of course she only cried, and said it was hopeless to
try to explain to me--how differently a woman felt about all these
things when she was going to be married. I believe she said I was
incapable of understanding the new emotions that came with a great
love."
That, indeed, seemed a romantic description of the mild, chance product
of the Fordette. However, the replete young authority only said:--
"Then I suppose it's great love that taught her engineering so
quickly--and all Donald's little peculiarities?"
Mary Wing made no answer. Her capable small hands took up the literature
lately provided by Charles. And when she spoke, it was as if his
unaccustomed acrimony had met and destroyed her own.
"Oh, it's natural that we should see everything differently. She is
really a sweet-natured girl. I'm sorry already for what I said to
her.... And her not wanting to stay here--you mustn't think that's just
a selfish whim--just wanting to live in New York. Of course, what she
wants is to have Donald to herself--to have their young married life to
themselves. And my going there to give advice to-day--naturally that
made her more certain than ever that she could never have that
here--with me just around the corner. She let me understand that,
finally. She intimated that Donald had said as much--he was tired of
being managed.... Oh, it's perfectly natural, perfectly right.
To-morrow, I'll accept it easily enough.... As I say--I haven't had much
time."
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