And it seemed to Charles, all at once, that Mary had accidentally stated
exactly what was the matter with her, as a woman and a friend. It seemed
to him suddenly that ever since he had known this girl he had been going
to her and saying, "Look here, I'll help you do such and such," and she,
in one way or another, had always been replying, "Why, _you_ couldn't
help ME!"
The conversation between the two old friends thus abruptly thinned out.
It became almost desultory on his part, not untouched with dignity. And
as they so chatted of Lee Grammar School and its unfavorable location,
he, the authority, was eyeing Mary Wing askance, unmistakably
reacting.... Was hardness, then, the necessary corollary of
"independence"? Was it true, exactly as Old Tories said, that a woman
could not grapple long with actuality without rubbing away that natural
sweetness and charm of hers which, it might be, the grim world needed
more than duplicate Careers? Certainly there was no charm for him in
this slip of a girl's self-assertion: "I'm a better man than you, don't
you know it?" Splendid, indeed, was her Spartan calm in a defeat serious
in every way, and with the peculiar sting conferred by Miss Trevenna's
fame. Why was it that he would have warmed to her so infinitely more,
have felt quite a new depth of affection for her, if, rather, she had
turned to him helpless and wildly weeping, "Help me! Help me, friend, or
I perish!"
"And at least you'll get out much earlier in the afternoons," he was
observing courteously....
But his secret thought continued to engross him, this fantastic thought
of Mary weeping. Now he remembered Miss Angela's girlish outburst last
night, after the bridge-party; and he saw that there was something
subtly fitting, engaging on the whole, in a woman's weeping over her
troubles. But Mary, of course, could not weep; she simply didn't have
the plant, as you might put it. No--you could picture Mary asking you to
sit on the sofa and look at her ring, more easily than weeping.
And then, becoming aware of a teacher hovering about in the corridor
near the door,--a fellow named Hartwell it was, who had long seemed
rather attentive to Mary,--Charles Garrott rose to go, a mere polite
caller.
"Isn't it time you were knocking off?"
"I think I'd better clear up a little more of this, now that I'm at it."
"I wonder if I couldn't help you with some of that?"
"Oh, no, thank you." (Why, of course he couldn't help HER, even to tear
up old papers.) "Nobody could understand it but me. But
I've--appreciated your visit."
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