"Oh, what’s the matter with me?" she groaned. "Why did that fool boy
come here to-night, telling me that it would bring him to the gallows
stained to the bone with the dye of hell, and that _I_ must keep her in
the right road—me? Huh, me keep a girl in the right track, so they can
keep on saying I’m the only scab on the body of the community? I won’t;
by all the powers above and below, _I won’t_! She can look out for
herself, even if it _does_ ruin an idiot of a man and pull him—It really
_would_ ruin him, though. Maybe it would ruin _me_. Maybe he’s right and
I ought to make a life business of saving others from what I’ve been
through—saving even my enemies. Christ said it; there is no doubt about
that. He said it. He never had to go through with what I have, though,
for He was free from the desire to fight, but He meant that one thing,
as the one great law of life—_the only law of life_! Oh, God, I must do
something! I must either save the girl or let it go on. I don’t know
which to do, as God is my creator, I don’t actually know which to do. I
don’t—I don’t—I don’t—really—know—which—I _want_ to do. That’s it—I
don’t know which I _want_ to do. I’m simply crazy to-night. I’ve never
felt this way before. I’ve always been able to tell whether I wanted, or
didn’t want, a thing, but now—"
She turned over on her side. Then she sat up, staring at the clock. Next
she put her feet on the floor and stood erect. "I won’t," she said,
between set teeth. "I won’t. Before God, and all the imps of hell I’ll
not meddle with it. It’s Jane Hemingway’s business to look after her
silly girl, and not mine."
She went again to the porch and stood staring out into the white
moonlight. The steady beat of the hoofs of Luke King’s horse, dying out
on the still night, came to her. Dear, dear boy! he did love the girl
and he never would be the same again—never. It would mean his downfall
from the glorious heights he had climbed. He would grapple as a wild
beast with the despoiler, and, as he said, go willingly to his own end?
Yes, that was Luke King; he had preached of the rugged road to heaven,
he would take the easier way to hell, and laugh in his despair at the
whole thing as a joke of fate.
Before she knew it, Ann found herself out at her gate. Forces within her
raised her hand to the latch and pushed her body through.
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