Country life -- Fiction; Vicars, Parochial -- England -- Fiction
“You knew you were doing wrong. You felt it even more than he did. For
God made you with a more delicate sense of purity, with a shrinking
from the temptation, with a womanly foreboding of disgrace, to help you
to hold the cup of your honour steady, which yet you dropped on the
ground. Do not seek refuge in the cant about a woman’s weakness. The
strength of the woman is as needful to her womanhood as the strength of
the man is to his manhood; and a woman is just as strong as she will
be. And now, instead of humbling yourself before your Father in heaven,
whom you have wronged more even than your father on earth, you rage
over your injuries and cherish hatred against him who wronged you. But
I will go yet further, and show you, in God’s name, that you wronged
your seducer. For you were his keeper, as he was yours. What if he had
found a noble-hearted girl who also trusted him entirely—just until she
knew she ought not to listen to him a moment longer? who, when his love
showed itself less than human, caring but for itself, rose in the
royalty of her maidenhood, and looked him in the face? Would he not
have been ashamed before her, and so before himself, seeing in the
glass of her dignity his own contemptibleness? But instead of such a
woman he found you, who let him do as he would. No redemption for him
in you. And now he walks the earth the worse for you, defiled by your
spoil, glorying in his poor victory over you, despising all women for
your sake, unrepentant and proud, ruining others the easier that he has
already ruined you.”
“He does! he does!” she shrieked; “but I will have my revenge. I can
and I will.”
And, darting past me, she rushed out into the storm. I followed, and
could just see that she took the way to the village. Her dim shape went
down the wind before me into the darkness. I followed in the same
direction, fast and faster, for the wind was behind me, and a vague
fear which ever grew in my heart urged me to overtake her. What had I
done? To what might I not have driven her? And although all I had said
was true, and I had spoken from motives which, as far as I knew my own
heart, I could not condemn, yet, as I sped after her, there came a
reaction of feeling from the severity with which I had displayed her
own case against her. “Ah! poor sister,” I thought, “was it for me thus
to reproach thee who had suffered already so fiercely? If the Spirit
speaking in thy heart could not win thee, how should my words of hard
accusation, true though they were, every one of them, rouse in thee
anything but the wrath that springs from shame? Should I not have tried
again, and yet again, to waken thy love; and then a sweet and healing
shame, like that of her who bathed the Master’s feet with her tears,
would have bred fresh love, and no wrath.”
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