Country life -- Fiction; Vicars, Parochial -- England -- Fiction
But again I answered for myself, that my heart had not been the less
tender towards her that I had tried to humble her, for it was that she
might slip from under the net of her pride. Even when my tongue spoke
the hardest things I could find, my heart was yearning over her. If I
could but make her feel that she too had been wrong, would not the
sense of common wrong between them help her to forgive? And with the
first motion of willing pardon, would not a spring of tenderness,
grief, and hope, burst from her poor old dried-up heart, and make it
young and fresh once more! Thus I reasoned with myself as I followed
her back through the darkness.
The wind fell a little as we came near the village, and the rain began
to come down in torrents. There must have been a moon somewhere behind
the clouds, for the darkness became less dense, and I began to fancy I
could again see the dim shape which had rushed from me. I increased my
speed, and became certain of it. Suddenly, her strength giving way, or
her foot stumbling over something in the road, she fell to the earth
with a cry.
I was beside her in a moment. She was insensible. I did what I could
for her, and in a few minutes she began to come to herself.
“Where am I? Who is it?” she asked, listlessly.
When she found who I was, she made a great effort to rise, and
succeeded.
“You must take my arm,” I said, “and I will help you to the vicarage.”
“I will go home,” she answered.
“Lean on me now, at least; for you must get somewhere.”
“What does it matter?” she said, in such a tone of despair, that it
went to my very heart.
A wild half-cry, half-sob followed, and then she took my arm, and said
nothing more. Nor did I trouble her with any words, except, when we
readied the gate, to beg her to come into the vicarage instead of going
home. But she would not listen to me, and so I took her home.
She pulled the key of the shop from her pocket. Her hand trembled so
that I took it from her, and opened the door. A candle with a long
snuff was flickering on the counter; and stretched out on the counter,
with his head about a foot from the candle, lay little Gerard, fast
asleep.
“Ah, little darling!” I said in my heart, “this is not much like
painting the sky yet. But who knows?” And as I uttered the commonplace
question in my mind, in my mind it was suddenly changed into the half
of a great dim prophecy by the answer which arose to it there, for the
answer was “God.”
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