“I’m telling him I wish you were my sweetheart,” said Wilfred grinning.
(How sick he was of his own grin!) “That’s what makes him sore.”
“Aw, shucks!” said Mitzi.
“What do you expect to get out of it?” Wilfred went on to Stanny. “You
know as well as I do, that the man only puts out his pretty little wife
as a decoy. He never lets her out of his sight. I don’t see how you can
fall for it. With him looking on and sneering!”
“I wish to God I could see you make a fool of yourself over a woman!”
cried Stanny bitterly. “You wouldn’t be so damn superior then!”
Wilfred grinned until his nostrils hurt. He had spent the earlier part
of the night walking up and down North Washington Square, gazing at the
lighted windows of the Sturges sitting-room with sick eyes; picturing a
man inside bolder than himself.
“But I never will! I never will!” said Stanny. “You’re too much up in
the air!”
“You don’t know me,” murmured Wilfred.
“Yah! a hell of a romantic feller if the truth were known, eh?” sneered
Stanny.
Wilfred went on grinning inanely; tracing a capital E on the table with
his forefinger. It created a sort of diversion to have Stanny abusing
him unjustly; it was a counterirritant. He was absolutely sure of
Stanny’s affection. It comforted him a little to lean his breast against
the thorn of misunderstanding. It was the nearest to obtaining sympathy
that he could hope for, he thought.
After awhile Wilfred said: “Will you come now?”
“No!” said Stanny.
But Mitzi, though she could not understand their talk, perceived that
there was something inimical in the atmosphere. Presently she yawned
behind the sinister little manicured paw, and stood up.
“Well, goo’-ni’, boys. Come round to-morrow.”
Through sullen lashes Stanny watched the little thing go swaying down
the room and through the curtain at the rear, an unfathomable pain in
his eyes. Wilfred raged internally. A man like Stanny to be brought down
by _that_! What am I raging at? he asked himself. Certainly not at
Stanny; nor at the unconscious, infantile Mitzi. And he had no God to
rage at.—At the same time Wilfred envied Stanny; his pain was so much
simpler than his own.
Wilfred and Stanny went out on the sidewalk. At the Third avenue corner
Stanny stopped.
“You had better leave me here,” he said bitterly, but without anger;
“you can do me no good to-night.”
“How about your doing me a little good?” suggested Wilfred.
“Don’t make me laugh!” said Stanny. “You’re as transparent as window
glass! . . . If you could only get rid of your evangelical streak!”
“I don’t want to save you,” said Wilfred. “I just want to be with
somebody. Even you! . . . My God! you’re a selfish beggar!”
Stanny snorted, and started walking on with that extraordinarily doughty
carriage of his, more pronounced when he was drunk.
Wilfred fell in beside him. “Oh hell,” he said, “you can say what you
like. I’m not going to leave you. . . . You can come to my place if you
want. Or I’ll go to yours if you’d rather.”
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