mother, his love, concealed and prostrate as he himself had said,--these
were surely purer and nobler than the existence, surrounded by flattery,
of a frivolous or blasé nobleman.
A sparrow which Julien had tamed, and which lived among the neighboring
trees, entered the studio and lighted familiarly on Julie's shoulder.
She was surprised for a moment and thought that it was a miracle, a
presage of happiness or of victory. She was really bewildered with
emotion.
At last Madame Thierry appeared, sorely perturbed and deeply moved. She
had insisted upon being left alone with the countess for an instant. She
threw herself at her feet, and, being at once compelled by her to rise,
spoke thus to her:
"You are as kind as the angels, my lovely neighbor. I bless you a
thousand times! But I must tell you of my sorrow as well as my joy: my
son, my dear Julien, is lost if he does not abandon all hope of ever
seeing you again. He loves you, madame, he loves you madly! He deceived
me, he told me that he had hardly seen you in the distance; but he sees
you every day, he gazes at you stealthily, he is driving himself wild,
he is killing himself, by looking at you. He doesn't eat, he doesn't
sleep, he has lost all his cheerfulness, his eyes are hollow, his voice
rings with fever. He has never loved before, but I know how he will
love, how he loves already. Alas! he has an excitable temperament, with
a mind of extraordinary constancy. Discourage him if possible, madame,
by not looking at him, by not speaking to him, by never seeing him
again. Have mercy on him and on me, and do not come to our house again!
In a few days we shall go away; absence will cure him perhaps. If it
does not cure him, I do not know what I shall do to avoid dying of
grief."
Madame Thierry sobbed bitterly, and there was in her tears an eloquence
born of conviction which dealt Julie the last blow. Her whole dream of
happiness seemed destined to vanish in face of this mother's despair.
That delicious revery which had poured such balm into her heart was a
mere vagary at which she herself would smile when she returned home. Had
she decided to break all social bonds in order to throw herself into the
arms of a man whom she had just seen for the first time? That was a most
absurd idea, and Madame Thierry was a thousand times right in looking
upon it as impossible. Julie made an effort to agree with her and to
drive away the vertigo that had assailed her; but the charm must have
been exceedingly potent, for it seemed to her that reason had torn the
heart out of her breast, and, instead of devising some dignified and
sensible response to encourage the poor mother, she threw herself into
her arms and followed her example by bursting into tears.
These tears so surprised Madame Thierry that she nearly lost her head.
She dared not ask for an explanation of them; nor indeed had she any
time to do so, for Julien and Marcel entered the room.
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