Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Monks -- Fiction; Portugal -- History -- 1826-1853 -- Fiction; Wine and wine making -- Fiction
When she reached the pool, Isabel did not cross the stepping-stones.
Halting some distance from the brawling waterfall, and hardly waiting
for Antonio to approach her, she began:
"We have had many long talks at this pool. To-day's talk will be
short. Surely I have crawled to you enough on my hands and knees,
and I will do it no more."
Antonio said nothing.
"There's not an hour to lose," she went on. "If you and I are going
to do the right thing, I must tell Mrs. Baxter to stop the packing at
once. You jump! You turn pale. I suppose you're shocked to hear me
call it the right thing. I can't help it. I must speak the truth.
It is the right thing. And the opposite thing is not only wrong;
it's wicked, it's blasphemous, it's a crime. No. Don't interrupt
me. You needn't think we're going over all the old, old arguments
again."
"You have changed your mind rather swiftly," said Antonio, refusing
to be suppressed. "Barely four hours ago you seemed to acquiesce
in--"
"In my fate," she said, with a bitter laugh. "So I did. You worked
on my feelings. Don't think me coarse and brutal; but I'll give you
one illustration. You spread for me your cloak. Do you think I
didn't see how old it was? When I thought of that, and of all the
hardships you'd suffered, my heart broke and I cried and cried and
cried like a baby. But I've changed my mind. I admire you as much
as ever; but I don't admire the way you are going on. A man like you
ought to have the best cloak in the world, and all the rest of the
best things with it. You are a poet, you are a delicate gentleman.
I see it every time you pour out a drop of wine or touch a flower.
You would rejoice in exquisite things more than any woman."
"Shall I offend you, Isabel?" he asked, coloring up, "if I remind you
that this talk is to be short? We are not getting on."
"Yes, we are getting on fast," she retorted. "I say that I hate the
way you are living. To save money and to buy back this place for the
Benedictines is all very well; but I say that your sacrifices are
overdone, and that God must be grieved by your excesses. He has
shown that you are not meant to be a monk. He has driven your
brethren away, and instead of them he has sent you ... _me_. No.
I'm not conceited. I don't think I'm wonderful. But I'm your
destiny, and that's everything. You were not called to monasticism;
you were called to _me_. That is, you were called to be a monk only
to save you from the wrong woman, only until the appointed day should
dawn for you and me to meet. It has dawned. Yes, Antonio, I can
quote Scripture, and I don't quote it irreverently either. The day
has dawned. And 'To-day if ye will hear His voice, harden not your
heart.' If you do, it will be a sin; just as I suppose it's a sin
for a man to harden his heart against the call to be a monk."
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