Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Monks -- Fiction; Portugal -- History -- 1826-1853 -- Fiction; Wine and wine making -- Fiction
Peace. From the peace of the sea Antonio's eyes wandered at last to
the peace of the earth. Roving over wood and meadow and stream, his
gaze came to rest at last in a little clearing between the ending of
the orange-groves and the beginning of the vineyards. This was the
monks' cemetery. It was three hundred years old, and the bones of
nearly all the men who had lived and breathed and walked in the
cloister under his feet lay beneath its pleasant turf and flowers.
In the midst of the clearing a tall and slender cross glimmered pale
through the dusk.
There was not a trace of morbidity in his mood; yet Antonio beheld
God's acre with more of longing than of shrinking. On so soft and
gracious a night even a pagan would have found something alluring in
the thought of death. After the day's glare the dimness was like a
veil for tired eyes, and the scented air was like caressing arms,
wooing one to everlasting rest. Antonio was no pagan and no
voluptuary. He wanted to live strenuously for God, according to the
Holy Rule: but it was good to feel that whenever the body should be
worn and weary even unto death, there would be this plot of hallowed
earth for its repose. With his eyes upon the pale cross Antonio
looked through it into his future. He pictured himself living his
life, as the hundreds of dead men in the cemetery had lived theirs,
in the cell, in the chapel, and in the cloister, studying the divine
mysteries, ever advancing toward perfection, praying for those who
would not pray for themselves, rendering to God some of the praise
and worship whereof the careless deprive Him, and striving, as it
were, to redress the balance of the world. He saw himself giving his
keen mind, his eager spirit, his young strength, his whole manhood to
the divine office, so that the praising of God should not all be left
to the weak, the simple, the aged, and to the fearful souls in the
shadow of death. He knew full well that the world did not understand
such a sacrifice, and that the mass of men were so entirely blind to
the monastic ideal that they would look on him either as a cowardly
shirker of life's duties or as a fanatical abstainer from its joys.
But he had long ago learned to despise the judgments of the world.
His sacrifice was acceptable to his Lord and it was the groundwork of
his spirit's peace. It was as though Antonio heard from the midst of
the stars His voice saying, _Pacem relinquo vobis, pacem meam do
vobis: non quomodo mundus dat, ego do vobis_--"Peace, I leave with
you. My peace I give to you; not as the world giveth give I to you."
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