Appreciations, with an Essay on StylePater, Walter
Philosophy
Appreciations, with an Essay on Style
Pater, Walter
English literature -- History and criticism; Style, Literary
The aged mother of Aliette, hitherto the guardian of his daughter, is
lately dead. Bernard proposes to take the child away with him to
Paris. The child's old nurse objects. On April the twenty-seventh,
Bernard writes:
For a moment--for a few moments--in that room where I have been
shutting myself up with the shadow of my poor [236] dead one, a
horrible thought had come to me. I had driven it away as an insane
fancy. But now, yes! it is becoming a reality. Shall I write this?
Yes! I will write it. It is my duty to do so; for from this moment
the journal, begun in so much gaiety of heart, is but my last will and
testament. If I should disappear from the world, the secret must not
die with me. It must be bequeathed to the natural protectors of my
child. Her interests, if not her life, are concerned therein.
Here, then, is what passed: I had not arrived in time to render my last
duty to Madame de Courteheuse. The family was already dispersed. I
found here only Aliette's brother. To him I communicated my plan
concerning the child, and he could but approve. My intention was to
bring away with Jeanne her nurse Victoire, who had brought her up, as
she brought up her mother. But she is old, and in feeble health, and I
feared some difficulties on her part; the more as her attitude towards
myself since the death of my first wife has been marked by an ill grace
approaching to hostility. I took her aside while Jeanne was playing in
the garden.
"My good Victoire," I said, "while Madame de Courteheuse was living, I
considered it a duty to leave her granddaughter in her keeping.
Besides, no one was better fitted to watch over her education. At
present my duty is to watch over it myself. I propose therefore to take
Jeanne with me to Paris; and I hope that you may be willing to
accompany her, and remain in her service." When she understood my
intention, the old woman, in whose hands I had noticed a faint
trembling, became suddenly very pale. She fixed her firm, grey eyes
upon me: "Monsieur le Comte will not do that!"
"Pardon me, my good Victoire, that I shall do. I appreciate your good
qualities of fidelity and devotion. I shall be very grateful if you
will continue to take care of my daughter, as you have done so
excellently. But for the rest, I intend to be the only master in my
own house, and the only master of my child." She laid a hand upon my
arm: "I implore you, Monsieur, don't do this!" Her fixed look did not
leave my face, and seemed to be questioning me to the very bottom of my
soul. "I have never believed it," she murmured, "No! I [237] never
could believe it. But if you take the child away I shall."
"Believe what, wretched woman? believe what?"
Her voice sank lower still. "Believe that you knew how her mother came
by her death; and that you mean the daughter to die as she did."
"Die as her mother did?"
"Yes! by the same hand!"
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