"I was told," he continued after a pause, during which he had
apparently considered and prepared his words, "that you were chiefly
known in Paris as being the possessor of some mysterious internal
force--call it magnetic, hypnotic, or spiritual, as you please--which,
though perfectly inexplicable, was yet plainly manifested and evident
to all who placed themselves under your influence. Moreover, that by
this force you were able to deal scientifically and practically with
the active principle of intelligence in man, to such an extent that you
could, in some miraculous way, disentangle the knots of toil and
perplexity in an over-taxed brain, and restore to it its pristine
vitality and vigor. Is this true? If so, exert your power upon me,--for
something, I know not what, has of late frozen up the once overflowing
fountain of my thoughts, and I have lost all working ability. When a
man can no longer work, it were best he should die, only unfortunately
I cannot die unless I kill myself,--which it is possible I may do ere
long. But in the meantime,"--he hesitated a moment, then went on, "in
the meantime, I have a strong wish to be deluded--I use the word
advisedly, and repeat it--DELUDED into an imaginary happiness, though I
am aware that as an agnostic and searcher after truth--truth absolute,
truth positive--such a desire on my part seems even to myself
inconsistent and unreasonable. Still I confess to having it; and
therein, I know, I betray the weakness of my nature. It may be that I
am tired "--and he passed his hand across his brow with a troubled
gesture--"or puzzled by the infinite, incurable distress of all living
things. Perhaps I am growing mad!--who knows!--but whatever my
condition, you,--if report be correct,--have the magic skill to ravish
the mind away from its troubles and transport it to a radiant Elysium
of sweet illusions and ethereal ecstasies. Do this for me, as you have
done it for others, and whatever payment you demand, whether in gold or
gratitude, shall be yours."
He ceased; the wind howled furiously outside, flinging gusty dashes of
rain against the one window of the room, a tall arched casement that
clattered noisily with every blow inflicted upon it by the storm.
Heliobas gave him a swift, searching glance, half pitying, half
disdainful.
"Haschisch or opium should serve your turn," he said curtly. "I know of
no other means whereby to temporarily still the clamorings of
conscience."
Alwyn flushed darkly. "Conscience!" he began in rather a resentful tone,
"Aye, conscience!" repeated Heliobas firmly. "There is such a thing. Do
you profess to be wholly without it?"
Alwyn deigned no reply--the ironical bluntness of the question annoyed
him.
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