"Most assuredly I am no anchorite, Sah-luma!" he said smiling slightly,
yet with a touch of sorrow in his voice. "But methinks the consolement
thou wouldst offer to enamoured maids is far more dangerous than
lasting! Thy love to them means ruin,--thy embraces shame,--thy
unthinking passion death! What!--wilt thou be a spendthrift of
desire?--wilt thou drain the fond souls of women as a bee drains the
sweetness of flowers?--wilt thou, being honey-cloyed, behold them droop
and wither around thee, and wilt thou leave them utterly destroyed and
desolate? Hast thou no vestige of a heart, my friend? a poet-heart, to
feel the misery of the world? ..the patient grief of all-appealing
Nature, commingled with the dreadful, yet majestic silence of an
unknown God? ... Oh, surely, thou hast this supremest gift of genius, .
. this loving, enduring, faithful, sympathetic HEART! ... for without
it, how shall thy fame be held long in remembrance? ... how shall thy
muse-grown laurels escape decay? Tell me! ..." and leaning forward he
caught his friend's hand in his eagerness.. "Thou art not made of
stone, . . thou art human, . . thou art not exempt from mortal
suffering ..."
"Not exempt--no!" interposed Sah-luma thoughtfully ... "But, as yet,--I
have never really suffered!"
"Never really suffered!".. Theos dropped the hand he held, and an
invisible barrier seemed to rise slowly up between him and his
beautiful companion. Never really suffered! ... then he was no true
poet after all, if he was ignorant of sorrow! If he could not
spiritually enter into the pathos of speechless griefs and unshed
tears,--if he could not absorb into his own being the prayers and
plaints of all Creation, and utter them aloud in burning and immortal
language, his calling was in vain, his election futile! This thought
smote Theos with the strength of a sudden blow,--he sat silent, and
weighed with a dreary feeling of disappointment to which he was unable
to give any fitting expression.
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