Anne began to be aware that with every increase of weariness to her
trudging legs and feet a bit of mental misery petered out, got dropped
off. Her mind, after a while, even began to function again. Since the
moment when Prescott had struck her—and run away from her on the New
Haven street, her mind had played almost no part in her actions, at
least her conscious mind hadn’t. As she went on beside silent Ariel,
suddenly, unaccountably, she recalled an incident of one of her summers
at the shore. She was at the extreme outer edge of a dock when a sloop
emerged from thick fog before her very face, as if it had taken its form
and motion from the mists themselves. And now it seemed to her that her
thoughts—the vehicle, that is, that made up her thought-feeling-self—was
such a sloop, sailing toward her out of a foggy nothingness, coming
clear, taking shape. But then there must be something else, something
detached from self, that could see self returning—and indeed, something
for self to return to. Any instant now the two would merge. The sloop
would slide alongside the dock, and self would step into self. And when
she did join this self, taking form and moving swiftly upon her now
after absence, would she lose the present sense of detachment? Would she
be whole again—less of self-consciousness and more of self?
But by now physical weariness had increased to a point which seemed
final. If she dragged her feet another step forward through the sticky
snow her legs would snap off at the hips. She came to a dead halt, too
exhausted even to get onto the side of the road out of the path of
possible motors. “Ariel!” she called. “I’m done up. Now what do you
want? What’s next?”
Anne’s tone and the words themselves sounded hopeless, and certainly her
physical self was hopeless. But in the instant of giving in to sheer
physical defeat she had also given in to an eerie kind of delight of the
spirit. She knew that good was coming, coming, coming, creaming up
toward her from every side into a surf of light in her heart.
Ariel turned back to her. “I’m tired too,” she confessed. “How far have
we come, do you suppose? Where are we?”
“A hundred miles or so, and we can’t be any distance at all from
Scarborough, if it’s still on the map and not taking a holiday. If we
can win on to that burg we can get a snack to eat and then catch a local
to New York. But why aren’t there any automobiles out? Too thick a
storm? If we could get picked up! What was exactly your idea, anyway, in
this form of recreation, Ariel? I’m just begun to get brains enough to
inquire into it.”
“I don’t know, myself,” Ariel murmured. “Only, after last night, you
know, I had to walk, run, or swim. It was the only way to—to uncoil it
from me. Let’s start on and pray for a motor to come along, a kind one.”
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