"You have been cruelly punished for your doubts! May Heaven forgive you!
"When you asked me to assist you in helping the husband of your cousin
Hélène, the delicacy of your conduct towards him was so touching that
you took a higher place in my estimation, a profound admiration; yes, my
friend, I admired your disinterestedness more than your manner of
acting, because I had discovered that through a fatal quality in your
nature you would always find some means of belittling in your own eyes
all the merit of this generous act, and that you would not even have the
satisfaction of your own conscience.
"For a long time I have been contemplating a voyage to Greece; I saw
that you were unhappy and I believed the moment favourable to propose
that you should join me in this journey. I shrouded it in mystery in
order to excite your curiosity, and when you finally decided to
accompany me I was very happy.
"Why was I so happy, my friend? Because, without at all resembling you,
bad luck, or my own exigencies, had until now deprived me of tasting the
joys of friendship, and I felt myself drawn towards you by a great
similarity of character and mind; because I believed that this voyage
would be a useful distraction for you; and because I found in it a
precious means of binding you to me in fast and enduring bonds of
affection.
"I knew that I should have great difficulty in overcoming your distrust,
that I would have deep-rooted doubts to conquer, but that did not
discourage me, for I had great faith in the persistence of my attachment
and the sagacity of your heart; it had chosen Hélène and Marguerite
for you to love, why should not I be chosen as your bosom friend?
"However, when I saw what slow progress I was making in your affections,
I was afraid that you did not see through the coldness and indifference
that I habitually affected.
"Little by little, though, you began to trust me, and a few days after
our departure from France we were like brothers.
"The rapid growth of our friendship did not surprise me; there was
between us such an affinity, our souls were so magnetised by sympathy,
that at the first contact they were joined for ever.
"Once sure of your affection, I began to examine my treasure at my
leisure.
"I was like those antiquaries who, when they finally come into
possession of a long-coveted rarity, spend hours in examining and
admiring its beauty. It was thus that I learned to appreciate your
learning and good sense. It was then that I undertook to awaken the good
instincts that I believed existed in your nature.
"I was not mistaken. When I had once made this discovery, you were no
longer in my eyes a poor, nervous, and irritable child, that we love
because it is weak and suffering, but a proud and venturesome young man,
with a strong mind, great intelligence, and persuasiveness, who had all
defects that were the natural opposites of his virtues.
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