"Ah, monsieur, how many long and happy evenings have I thus passed in
the intimacy of these two persons, so culpable and yet so virtuous! How
many times has this fatal and bizarre contrast almost troubled my
reason! How many summer evenings, in quitting them, have I, instead of
returning to the presbytery, gone to wander on the mountain slopes, to
meditate in silence in the sight of God alone! 'Oh, Lord,' cried I, 'how
impenetrable are thy ways! This woman is an adulteress, and is fully
conscious of her fault, since she constantly deplores it. She is very
guilty in thy sight and in the sight of men, and yet, what life could be
more exemplary, more beneficent, more practically touching and virtuous,
than the one she leads? How many times have I not heard her chanting
hymns in thy praise, in a voice so filled with religious fervour as to
carry conviction of her faith! Oh, dear Lord, what dangerous things are
vice and crime, when they clothe themselves under such deceptive
appearances! Must we hate them more? Ought we to have pity on them?
Should they not deserve our pardon? And he, that strange man who says he
has no faith in our religions, of what religion is he? What can be that
ignored religion which imposes on him a life of such goodness and
generosity, which makes him so humane, which causes him to be loved and
blessed by every one? From what unknown source does he derive those
principles of a wise and far-reaching charity? And yet they say that he
has respected nothing that men hold holy and sacred, that he has
trampled underfoot every law of social life. And it must be true, for if
his love of to-day is unlawful, his former life was more criminal still;
they say so, and I believe it; for, as by a flash of lightning one can
see the immensity of the abyss, so, in that fearful moment in which he
feared to lose the one he loved, I had penetrated into the depths of his
soul, and I had shuddered with terror. And yet his conduct has never
given the lie to the nobility of his sentiments. Oh, God, thy ways are
impenetrable!' I repeated more undecided than ever, as I humbled myself
before the mysterious designs of Providence. I was soon to have a
terrible proof of how his inexorable justice inevitably reaches the
guilty.
"Alas! monsieur, my tale is nearing its end, and that end is a frightful
one.
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