My aunt smiled sadly, and said to me, "My friend, you must feel that
after such rumours we must live separate lives; to remain at Serval any
longer would be to justify these calumnies. I know my daughter, and I
know the purity of your sentiments; this is sufficient for me. But, my
child, appearances are against us; the confidence I so legitimately have
in your honour would be called weakness and carelessness. I should have
remembered, alas! that the purest life has always been at the mercy of
those who desire to cover it with disgrace. You know our position.
Hélène is poor; she has nothing in the world but her good name. May it
please God that these frightful lies have not gone so far as to do fatal
and irreparable injury!"
"Has Hélène been told of this?" I asked my aunt.
"No, my friend; but she is of sufficiently strong mind to be told
everything without concealment."
"Well, then, my aunt, promise me to be gracious enough not to tell her
until to-morrow."
My aunt consented to my request and I went up to my own room.
You may readily suppose that my vague and passing wish for solitude
quickly vanished now that I was in real mental distress.
The dinner was a sad affair; afterwards we returned to the salon.
Hélène loved her mother too well and was also too fond of me not to
perceive at once that we were worried; besides, I had not, in those
days, enough dissimulation to hide my resentment.
A thousand confused ideas were working in my brain; I could come to no
decision; I recalled my long talks with Hélène, our frequent solitary
walks, which were authorised by the familiarity of relationship and
dated from our childhood; I thought of our simple pleasures, the
involuntary preference I had always shown for Hélène's society; when
walking she always had my arm; when on horseback I was always at her
side; in fact I never quitted her. I saw then that to the most
unprejudiced eyes such persistent attention must have gravely
compromised Hélène. Then again, I remembered the thousand looks and
signals arranged, beforehand between us, mute and amorous language not
destined to escape the notice of the visitors we received. Fatal charm
of first love, so engrossing as to leave us no thought except of
ourselves! stupefying atmosphere in which we had been living so happy
and so free from all care, and which we foolishly believed was
impenetrable to the idle gaze of the world!
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