“Have a smoke,” glancing towards a tabourette, strewn with pipes, some
of them disreputable enough to the eye.
“Take any of them, you won’t be smoking any old, dry, dead
memories--these are all ‘bought’ ones.”
“I’ll help myself. I was just reading my mail. The boy handed it to me
as I was leaving the office.”
Folding a sheet of paper on which was written only a name and address,
he took up one of the pipes and began filling it.
So Esther Powel was in town. It was a daring entrance upon life for
this little hard-headed, soft-hearted Southerner. He looked thoughtful;
the soberness of his youth, rather than the labor of his manhood, had
lightly marked his face. A sudden apprehension seized him for the pure,
sweet life he knew so well. It was almost as much as her life was worth
to come here so pretty and so friendless. She needed protection.
This thought took possession of his mind to the exclusion of all else.
In the old days he had been the only one who could bend her wayward
will. Her faith in him was the blind unquestioning faith of a child.
Her own feeling for him she did not reason with. She accepted it as a
fact which was beyond her analysis. Under its spell she had grown and
flourished against great odds. Why should she not continue to do so?
“Briarley,” Glenn went on, filling his pipe, and packing it down with
his thumb. “Suppose you knew a girl who was coming here alone, to study
art, what would you consider the very best way to shield her?”
“By keeping away from her.”
“But, suppose she needed some one to look to--suppose she were young and
knew no one. City life is a fiercely hardening process, you know.”
“I’d get some woman friend to show her all there was to see, and that
might cure her. So-called sin charms because it’s unknown.”
“Don’t you think a girl’s love, if not unappreciated, is a shield and
an inspiration?”
Briarley shook his head.
“Oh! of course, I forgot. You don’t believe in love.”
“I do, as much as I believe in any other hell.”
Andrews was silent.
“Have your fun out, then we’ll be serious.”
Their views were directly opposite, yet the enthusiasm of each made
ground for respect, if not agreement.
“While you now admit such a phantasy, Andrews, you get the credit of
living by the head. It is generally understood that you never let
scruples of the heart stand in the way.”
“I am not a woman; besides, it is a matter of self-denial, and not
unbelief. My love is my profession--long ago I made my choice between
woman and art--if I had chosen woman that love would have ruled my life.
I have given over much for my work; it has demanded sacrifice. I am
just now beginning to prove myself equal to its despotic sovereignty.
Briarley, unless you have tried for one thing all your life, you can’t
conceive how bewildering and sweet a burst of it is for the first time.
Under no conditions whatever would I sacrifice my best aims, my highest
ambitions. It is better to be than to have. That’s my philosophy.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account