“MY young Idealist, I send you a clever story, one which shows
remarkable talent, and which you really must read. There is, or was,
once upon a time in this town, another consummate young Idealist like
yourself, but of the female persuasion; a protegé of yours who
fiddled. She, I remember, believed in a few things; among others,
that there was a little to be considered besides art, and that she
had a lump somewhere which she called a heart. You have always been
troubled with the same feature, I believe.
“The lady has just issued a story, which I send you to-day. Just take
a look at it and find me that lump, will you? Cold as an icicle! By
the way, I understand that the lady in question was quite a social
success here in our city, and very much sought after in drawing rooms,
in which she earned about her own price. She has come to the
philosophical conclusion that you used to uphold: which is, that as
long as a person _does_, it don’t much matter what a person _feels_.
Anyway, she is doing it; and I take it from this novel that she is
not feeling much either.
“Yours, Briarley.”
Glenn read the letter with a curious shock, and opened the novelette.
As he finished the last page and laid it down on the table beside
him--this story with the heart of a stone--he sat looking out the window
with a daze of anguish in his eyes. His hands were supporting his
bearded chin. Without, the splendid sunset, the gilding flame of which
caused his features to shine resplendently. His sad, wistful face,
convulsed with emotion. What a tumult of silent, unspeakable memories;
what feelings of regret and longing! Instinct does not always point the
truth. No suspicion of the brave ruse of Esther came to him now--no
apprehension of the hurt pride whose strain of revolt forced from her
this literary lie. He had been driven blindly on by his yearning for
the more perfect art. He didn’t care for laurels now, nor for that art
for whose sake he had destroyed the best thing in his life. Was ever
heart-break more cruel? He sat for an hour in silence. The sunset had
lost its beauty. The grain on the hills had lost its gold. He took
the letter he had been writing to Esther, tore it up, and flung the
fragments of what, if he had known, was the best of his life, out the
window. A lazy breeze caught them up and scattered them. A single one
with the word “love” on it was blown back and settled slowly in his
hat. A bell was ringing for compline. He saw the peasants in their
simple devotion going slowly to worship. He took his hat and walked
across the street to the little café. There two comrades called him
over to have a bottle of wine with them.
“Ah, poet!” one said, laughing as he reached over and took the stray
bit of paper that lay on his hair. “Still the philosopher! Making love
with your head?”
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