France -- History -- Francis I, 1515-1547 -- Fiction
Ascanio was hardly more happy; he was persuaded, as he had said to
Madame d'Etampes, that Colombe did not love him. Comte d'Orbec, whom he
knew only by name, was, in his jealous thoughts, a young and attractive
nobleman, and Messire d'Estourville's daughter, the happy betrothed of a
well favored, nobly born lover, had never for an instant thought of an
obscure artist. Even if he had retained the vague and fleeting hope
which never deserts a heart overflowing with love, he had himself
destroyed his last chance if Madame d'Etampes was really in love with
him, by disclosing to her the name of her rival. This proposed marriage,
which she might perhaps have prevented, she would now do everything in
her power to hasten forward; and poor Colombe would feel the full force
of her hatred. Yes, Benvenuto was right; that woman's love was in very
truth a terrible and deadly thing; but Colombe's love would surely be
the sublime, celestial sentiment of which the master had first spoken,
and alas! that immeasurable blessing was destined for another!
Ascanio was in despair; he had believed in Madame d'Etampes's
friendship, and now it seemed that this deceitful friendship was a
dangerous passion; he had hoped for Colombe's love, and it seemed that
her supposititious passion was nothing more than indifferent friendship.
He felt that he almost hated both these women, who had so falsified his
dreams in that each of them regarded him as he would have liked to be
regarded by the other.
Entirely absorbed by a feeling of hopeless discouragement, he did not
once think of the lily ordered by Madame d'Etampes, and in his jealous
anger he would not repeat his visit to the Petit-Nesle, despite the
entreaties and reproaches of Ruperta, whose innumerable questions he
left unanswered. Sometimes, however, he repented of the resolution he
made on the first day, which was assuredly cruel to none but himself. He
longed to see Colombe, to demand an explanation. But of what? Of his own
extravagant visions! However, he would see her, he would think in his
softer moments; he would confess his love to her as a crime, and she was
so tender-hearted that perhaps she would comfort him as if it were, a
misfortune. But how explain his absence, how excuse himself in the
maiden's eyes?
Ascanio allowed the days to pass in innocent, sorrowful reflections, and
did not dare to take any decided step.
Colombe awaited Ascanio's coming with mingled terror and joy on the day
following that on which Dame Perrine floored the apprentice with her
direful revelation; but in vain did she count the hours and the minutes,
in vain did Dame Perrine keep her ears on the alert. Ascanio, who had
recovered in good time from his swoon, and might have availed himself of
Colombe's gracious permission, did not come, attended by Ruperta, and
give the preconcerted signal at the door in the wall of the Petit-Nesle.
What did it mean?
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