Parent and child -- Fiction; Sardinia (Italy) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Unmarried mothers -- Fiction
"To-morrow night, or rather this night, for its already morning, I shall
expect you. Don't fail me. Come, my adored one, my darling, my beloved
bridegroom, come! I shall expect you as a flower expects the dew after a
day of burning sun. Come! revive me, make me forget. My lips shall be
laid on yours like----"
"No! no! no!" cried Anania convulsively, crumpling the letter before he
had read the last lines, "I won't come! You are bad! bad! bad! I shall
die, but I shan't see you again!"
With the letter crushed in his hand, he threw himself on his bed,
burying his face in the pillow, biting it, restraining the sobs which
rose in his throat. A shudder of passion ran through him, rising like a
wave from his feet to his head. The last lines had filled him with
tumultuous desire for Margherita's kisses, a desire as violent as it was
despairing.
Little by little he regained self-control and knew what he was
experiencing. He had seen the naked Margherita, and he felt for her a
delirious love, and a disgust so great as to annihilate that very love.
How mean, how despicable she was! and consciously. The goddess, veiled
in majesty and goodness, had thrown off her golden robes, and appeared
naked, daubed with egotism and unkindness. The taciturn minerva had
opened her lips to curse. The symbolic image had burst like a fruit rosy
without, black and poisonous within. She was complete woman with all her
savage wiles.
But the worst torment was the thought that Margherita guessed his secret
sentiments. That she was right in reproving his deceptions, in asking
the fulfilment of his duties of gratitude and love.
"It's all over!" he thought. "It was bound to end like this."
He got up and reread the letter. Every word offended and humiliated him.
Margherita had loved him out of compassion, believing him as despicable
as she was herself. Probably she had meant him to be just an instrument
of her pleasure, a complacent servant, a humble husband. No, probably
she had not thought of anything like that, but had loved him by mere
instinct, because he had been the first to kiss her, to speak to her of
love.
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