Asphodel : $b a novelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Asphodel : $b a novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
How well she remembered that sunny morning in early April—ages ago!
Childhood seems so far off at seventeen. How distinctly she remembered
the artist whose refined and gentle manners had won her childish heart!
She had been so little praised at South Hill that her pulses thrilled
with pleasure when her father’s friend smiled at her flower-crowned
head and cried: ‘What a lovely picture! Look, Lawford, would not you
like me to paint her just as she is at this moment, with her hair
flying in the wind, and that background of rushes and blue water?’ But
Sir Vernon turned on his heel with a curt half-muttered answer, and the
two men walked on and left her, smoking their cigarettes as they went.
She remembered how, in a blind childish fury, scarce knowing why she
was angry, she tore the daffodil crown from her hair and trampled it
under foot.
To the end of his visit the painter called her Asphodel, and one
morning finding her alone in the garden, he carried her off to the
billiard-room and made a sketch of her head with its loose tangled
hair: a head which appeared next year on the line at the Royal Academy
and was raved about by all artistic London.
And now it was early April again, and she was a girl in the fair dawn
of womanhood, free to do what she liked with her life, and there were
many things that she was beginning to understand, things not altogether
pleasant to her womanly pride. She was beginning to perceive very
clearly that her father did not love her, and was never likely to love
her, that her presence in his home gave him no pleasure, that he simply
endured her as part of the burden of life, while to her sister he gave
love without stint or measure. True that he was by nature and habit
selfish and self-indulgent, and that the love of such a man is at best
hardly worth having. But Daphne would have been glad of her father’s
love, were the affection of ever so poor a quality. His indifference
chilled her soul. She had been accustomed to command affection; to be
petted and praised and bowed down to for her pretty looks and pretty
ways; to take a leading position with her schoolfellows, partly because
she was Sir Vernon Lawford’s daughter, and partly for those subtle
charms and graces which made her superior to the rank and file of
school-girls.
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