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And then for the first time Mrs. Farquharson's idle, jesting words came
into her mind:
“Take care that he has not gone and fallen in love with somebody!”
And the child's old face seemed to add a mocking confirmation.
This would explain all: his sudden change, the stiffness of his letter;
his shrinking from seeing her; the awkwardness of his apology; the vague
phrase, “things have happened,” which had puzzled her. The more she
thought of it the more probable did this solution seem. It caused her a
little heaviness of heart. Certain strange imaginings had come to her,
too, this week. She needed the strength of Kent's friendship.
There are no persons harder to read and easier to misunderstand than
those of whom we are fondest. There are two common causes of mutual
miscomprehension. First we take it too much for granted that we can
read the heart of another human being; and secondly, we are too apt to
conclude that affinities sharpen perception to such an extent that the
unexpressed becomes luminously expressive. This is a curious fact, too
little recognised in our minor problems in social statics. Clytie had
fallen into the one error, Kent into the other.
For the first time in her life Clytie felt afraid. The sense of what was
missing in her life dawned, half shadowy, before her. She was different
from other girls of her age, more advanced, as the phrase goes. For the
majority of women come in ignorance to emotion; they feel, before they
realise that they are learning. But Clytie in her eager search after the
roots of existence had learned much, with feelings as yet untried. In
this knowledge, if as yet there was no sorrow, there was fear. If Kent
had come to her at this moment with a passionate avowal of his love,
she would have yielded to him. Her fear would have melted away into
joyousness, the rich springs of her nature would have been opened, and
her destiny would have been accomplished. But neither of them knew this.
He was engaged in the humorous task of trying to kill love, and she was
half consciously tending along a path strangely diverging from his.
She dined that evening at the Farquharsons'. Hammerdyke was the only
other guest. It was a bright, cosy meal, and Clytie soon forgot her
depression of the morning. Caroline was at her merriest, proud of her
three companions--of each in an especial manner. George was mildly
satirical, as usual. He wore his velvet jacket, in which he found more
happiness than in his ceremonial dress-coat. His dry touch of humour
was pleasantly antagonistic to Hammerdyke's stronger personality and
downright views of life. The latter laughed heartily, almost boyishly
at his rebuker, like one who is accustomed to indulgence on the part of
others for caprices of action and language. These, coming from a lesser
man, might have been repugnant to the sensitive; but from him they
seemed to bear a physical justification.
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