And Gerald said yes, he had found the sea air tonic. He had been staying
with the Johns, Vincent's mother lived in Leghorn. He had worked a
little, made a few drawings. Digressing, he mentioned a trifling gift he
had brought her, and produced a small brass vessel, fitted with two
hinged lids, meant to contain grains of incense for the altar. He said
he had found it in an antiquarian's shop and thought she might care for
it to drop her rings into; he supposed she took them off at night. Its
shape seemed to him to possess more than common elegance.
Aurora called it adorable, and his giving it to her sweet. They talked
as if they had been making believe, for the benefit of an audience, to
be the most ordinary friends.
And each of them meanwhile, with heart and head gone slightly insane in
secret, was considering a marvel. The long separation--it had been long
to them--had recreated for both something of the capacity to receive a
fresh impression of the other. The marvel to Aurora was that this choice
being, with his intellectual brow (that was her adjective for Gerald's
brow) his difference from others, all in the way of superiority to them,
the indescribable fascination residing in his every feature, mood, or
word, should be walking the world unclaimed and unattached, for her to
take if she were so minded. Her to take! It was vertiginous.
And the marvel to him was, in beholding that bounteous temple of a soul,
with its radiance of life, its share, so rich, of the mysterious
something which made the earliest men care to build homes; its gifts, so
large, of comfort and warmth--the marvel was that he should have dared
aspire to conquer it, should have set that to himself as a thing he was
going to persevere in trying to do until--until he had done it, he,
puny, poor in inducements, light of weight.
The two of them, there could be no doubt of it, had passed within the
portals after which a change comes over the eyes, and those who enter
see each other endowed with qualities raising the capacity for wonder to
an ecstasy: so much engaging beauty, so much dearness, are not to be
believed!... It can never be established whether the eyes only see truly
when under this charm, or whether then more than at other times illusion
makes of them its fool.
If he had been analytical on the subject of his sentiment for Aurora, as
so often on other subjects, and said to himself that he saw this woman
in a golden transfiguring light because he was in good primordial
fashion in love with her--because, that is to say, obscure affinities of
flesh and blood united with the esteem created by her virtues to make of
him a candle which the touch of her finger-tip miraculously could
light--he would have felt it as a blessed and not a base secret at the
bottom of his attachment.
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