While they talked of the weather, as they fell to doing when they had
disposed of the subject of the little incense-holder; and, after that,
while they talked of Leghorn and the various seaside places which Aurora
had to choose from for her summer sojourn, a vastly deep conversation
was taking place between them, which we think it not amiss to report,
because by the nature of things the words they would say aloud on this
occasion would be meager and colorless by comparison with the things
they would feel and to some extent convey to each other through mere
proximity.
"O Aurora," exhaled from Gerald, while, looking not far from his usual
self, he said that Ardenza by the sea, a mere three miles from Leghorn,
was a very pretty place, "Aurora, you are warmth, you are shelter, you
are rest. I have no hearth or home except as you let me in out of the
desperate cold of loneliness, and grant me to warm myself at your big
heart. You should see, woman dear, that my thankfulness would make you
happy. Nature, the divine, so formed you that my love would kindle
yours. And when you had given your hand into mine I should find paths of
violets, enchanted paths, for us to walk in which you could never find
without me, nor I find for myself. Put up no petty shield against me,
Aurora; fight me with no petty lance, for I verily am that guest you
were awaiting when on balmy spring evenings you felt, and knew not why,
that your life was incomplete."
And Aurora, mechanically pulling off her rings and putting them into the
brass receptacle, then taking them out of it and putting them back on
her fingers, while she chattered, describing the advantages of a
furnished villa at Antiniano, to be preferred because they were some
Italian friends of Leslie's who desired to let it, was in her inmost
speaking to the inmost of Gerald. The hardly self-conscious meanings
within her bosom made as if an extension of her in the air, comparable
to the halo around the moon on a misty night; and this atomized radiance
had language, it said: "Oh, to draw your head down where it desires to
be! To warm and comfort you! To be to you everything you need! I lean to
you, I cling to you like a vine with every winding tendril. But I am so
afraid of you! so afraid! I am of common, you of finest, clay. How can I
give into any hand so much power to hurt me? If I were to dare it, then
find I could not make you happy, your disappointment would be my
heart-break, and my tragedy might spoil your life. But this know,
Gerald, dearer to me for having been so unhappy, nothing my life could
contain without you would seem to me so good as life with you in a poor
workman's attic, under falling snow, and I to make it home for you!"
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