While two souls thus trembled and gravitated toward each other, bathing
in each other's light, it is almost mortifying to have to show to what
degree that which took place at the surface was different and inferior;
to what degree the fine abandon of words spoken and actions performed in
thought was replaced by a shivering prudence keeping guard on one side,
and on the other a deplorable timidity trying awkwardly to be bold.
Heard through the door, the scene that ensued between these two curious
lovers, when they had worked their way through preliminaries and come to
the point at which they had parted after the day at Vallombrosa, must
particularly have seemed lacking in purple and poetry; for then the soft
light in Aurora's eyes would not have been seen, nor the deep flash in
Gerald's, as he by a point scored felt himself nearer to the goal.
"Now, what made you run off like that, I want to know," Aurora asked in
the flowing American which she reserved for real friends and sincere
moments, "after you'd said when you left me at the door, 'Good-by till
to-morrow'?"
"My reasons were several, all simple," he replied, with a faun-look up
from the corner of his eye, which watched her expression. "First, I
wished to flee from that newspaper article--dreadful!--till the danger
of any reference to it in my hearing was greatly reduced. Then, aside
from a slight natural need to recover myself, I felt I must for manners'
sake allow a little time to pass before I approached you again on the
subject of marrying me. One scruples to make himself a bore. It
therefore would be better not to see you, and, in order not to see you,
better not to be in town. Lastly, Auroretta, I conceived the infernal
ambition to make you suffer from absence the minutest fraction of what I
should suffer myself."
"Don't say a word! I've missed you so my bones felt hollowed out!"
"Reflect then, my dearest, upon the sufferings you are preparing for
yourself if you haven't a kinder answer for me than the other day to the
same question. All the reasons you gave for saying no were such bad
ones, founded upon a bad opinion of me. I can't take your refusal for
final, don't you see, without first being sure I have convinced you at
least that you are wrong in thinking me a fish or a mudturtle, and wrong
in attributing a lack of intelligence to me which could betray me into
confusing great things with little, little with great."
"Oh, Gerald, you oughtn't to keep on trying! I do wish you wouldn't! No!
Don't say any more about it!" she pleaded in weak anguish. "You oughtn't
to go on battering against the little bit of common sense I've got
left."
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