The fact became of some consequence to Gerald that in his relation to
Mrs. Hawthorne he was so largely a taker. He did not count as any return
for her hospitalities the time he gave to sight-seeing with her and her
friend; he was modest with regard to his own contributions.
He had in truth not desired to fall into Mrs. Hawthorne's debt. He would
have liked best to keep away from her; but fate, likewise character, set
snares for him. After he had stayed away for a certain length of time,
the thought would rise to trouble him, "She will feel hurt," and all
against the voice of good sense, such a reason as that had power with
Gerald. He would then call, and her welcome would be so kind, her
heartiness so warming, that he would stay to dinner, and promise to go
somewhere with them on the following day, after which he would dine with
them again.
So now the gentlemanly wish defined itself in him to show by some token
that he did not take favors all as a matter of course.
He would have liked to make her an offering a little exquisite, a little
rare, which she might recognize as possessing these points and
accordingly prize. To bestow anything concrete would have been folly. A
few possessions he had which he would have thought worthy of the
acceptance of queens: a tear phial of true Roman glass, a Japanese print
or two, a few coins that were old already when Christ was young. And he
would have parted with any one of these treasures to Mrs. Hawthorne,
though not wholly without a pang: first, because he liked her, and then
because he had eaten as it seemed to him a good deal of her bread and
syrup. But she would not have cared for these things; while bereaving
himself, he would have enriched her not at all.
The duty of doing something for Mrs. Hawthorne's pleasure was felt even
by Charlie Hunt, who took her to a concert. When Gerald heard of it, he
searched more persistently and, fate aiding, found something which might
give the lady amusement, he thought, and would certainly afford an
opportunity that would hardly have come her way without his good
offices.
The morning mail brought him a note relating to his project; he did not
wait for afternoon to communicate its contents.
It was eleven when he rang at Mrs. Hawthorne's door. He had hardly
finished asking the servant whether the signora were at home when he
heard her voice upstairs, singing behind closed doors.
She had said so many times, when he went through the formality of having
himself announced and waiting for permission to present himself, "Why
didn't you come right up?" that this morning he said to the servant, "It
imports not to advise her. I shall mount." Did the servant look faintly
ironical, or did Gerald mistakenly imagine it?
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