Mary Ann possessed a single blemish in a nature fashioned to captivate a
lonely and excitable child. She worshipped my uncle Lionel. My uncle
Lionel was his mother's favourite--a Glasgow lad, my grandfather
contemptuously defined him, without the Cameron nose; a fine, handsome,
fair young fellow, the picture of my mother, extremely distinguished in
manner and appearance, and reputed to be a genius. He is said to have
written quantities of superlative verse which he disdained to publish;
but as nobody ever saw even the manuscript, we may regard the
achievement as apocryphal. He had finished his studies in Paris, which
explained a terrifying habit, whenever he met me--frightening the wits
out of me the while by his furious look--of bursting out into what I
afterwards learnt to be an old French song: "Corbleu, madame, que faites
vous ici?"
I wish grown-up persons could realise the shudder of terror that ran
through me and momentarily dimmed for me the light of day, when I heard
that loud voice, encountered the mock ferocity of that blue glance, and
then felt myself roughly captured by strong arms, lifted up, and a
shaven chin drawn excruciatingly across my tender small visage. These
are trifles to read of, but what is a trifle in childhood? A child feeds
greedily upon its own excesses of sensation, thrives upon them, or is
consumed by them. To these early terrors, these accumulated emotions,
these swift alternations of anguish and rapture, which made opening
existence for me a sort of swing, perpetually flying and dropping
between tears and laughter, from radiant heights, without transition, to
pitch darkness, do I attribute the nervous illnesses that have so
remorselessly pursued me in after-years. The wonder is the mind itself
did not give way.
Big language for a handsome young man with a blonde moustache and an
elegant figure to have provoked, with his Corbleu, madame! his
theatrical fury, and his shaven chin. He now and then gave me a shilling
to console me, which shilling I spontaneously offered to Mary Ann, whose
real consolation it was, since it filled the steaming glass for her and
my friend Dennis, the red-nosed coachman, and permitted me to sit in
front of them, a grave and awed spectator of their aged frolics.
Immoral undoubtedly, yet that evening bumper of punch converted Mary Ann
into a charming companion. She and the fire in front of us--for it was
on the verge of winter--cheered me as I had not yet been cheered since I
had left my kind Kildare folk. The tyrants sat above in state, while I,
enthralled below, listened to Mary Ann, as she wandered impartially from
legend to reminiscence and anecdote, and not infrequently burst into
song and dance.
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