And so we travelled conscientiously, like humble, but, in the very
secret depths of our being, self-admiring pilgrims, over the weary and
profitless road of self-examination, and assured ourselves with a
fervent thrill that we were indeed miserable sinners. "I'll never get
into a passion again," I swore to Polly Evans, like a monstrous little
Puritan, and before an hour had passed was thirsting for the blood of
some offender.
I even went so far as to include Sister Esmeralda and Frank in my offer
of general amnesty to humanity; and indited at some nun's suggestion a
queer epistle to my mother, something in the tone the prodigal son from
afar might have used writing to his father when he first decided to
abandon the husks and swine, etc. I boldly announced my intention of
forsaking the path of wickedness, with a humble confession of hitherto
having achieved supremacy in that nefarious kingdom, and of walking
henceforth with the saints.
I added a practical postscript, that I was always very hungry, and
stated with charming candour that I did not like any of the nuns except
Mother Aloysius, which was rather a modification of the exuberant burst
of virtue expressed on the first page. This postscript was judiciously
altered past recognition, and I was ordered to copy it out: "I am very
happy at Lysterby. All the dear nuns are so kind to me. We shall have a
little feast soon. Please, dear mamma, send me some money."
If the money ever came, it was naturally confiscated by the dear nuns.
It was not money we mites needed, but bread-and-butter and a cup of good
milk, or a plate of simple sustaining porridge. However, for the moment
the excitement of confession sustained us. Having communicated to each
other the solemn impression that we had broken all the Commandments,
committed the seven deadly sins, and made mockery of the four cardinal
virtues, the next thing to decide was to what length of repentance we
were bound to go. Polly Evans' enthusiasm was so exalted that she
yearned to follow the example of the German emperor we had read of who
walked, or crawled on his knees, I forget which, to Rome, and made a
public confession to the Pope. But this we felt to be an immodest flight
of fancy in a little girl who had done nothing worth speaking of. She
was like my Kildare companion Mary Jane, who constantly saw herself in a
personal scuffle with Queen Victoria.
When the great day came we were bidden to stay in the chapel after the
rest, and then were taken down to the town convent, with instructions to
keep our minds fixed upon the awful sacrament of confession as we walked
two and two through the streets.
"Remember, children," said that infamous Sister Esmeralda, prettier than
ever, as she fixed me with a deadly glance, "to tell a lie in the
confessional box is to tell a lie to the Holy Ghost. You may be struck
dead for it."
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