Autobiography of a Female SlaveBrowne, Martha Griffith
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Autobiography of a Female Slave
Browne, Martha Griffith
African American women -- Fiction; Didactic fiction; Enslaved women -- Fiction; Kentucky -- Fiction; Slavery -- Fiction
"Amy, God loves you."
"I doesn't love Him."
"Don't talk that way, child."
"Well, you go off, and let me 'lone."
"I wish to comfort you."
"I doesn't want no comfort."
"Come," said I, "talk freely to me. It will do you good."
"I tells you I doesn't want no good for to happen to me. I'd rather be
like I is."
"Amy," and it was with reluctance I ventured to allude to a subject so
painful; but I deemed it necessary to excite her painfully rather than
leave her in that granite-like despair, "you may yet have your sisters
and little brother restored to you."
"How? how? and when?" she screamed with joy, and started up, her wild
eyes beaming with exultation.
"Don't be so wild," I said, softly, as I took her little, hard hand, and
pressed it tenderly.
"But, say, Ann, ken I iver git de chilen back? Has Masser said anything
'bout it? Oh, it 'pears like too much joy fur me to iver know any more.
Poor little Ben, it 'pears like I kan't do nothin' but hear him cry. And
maybe dey is a beatin' of him now. Oh, Lor' a marcy! what shill I do?"
and she rocked her body back and forward in a transport of grief.
There are some sorrows for which human sympathy is unavailing. What to
that broken heart were words of condolence? Did she care to know that
others felt for her? that another heart wept for her grief? No, like
Rachel of old, she would not be comforted.
"Oh, Ann!" she added, "please leave me by myself. It 'pears like I
kan't get my breath when anybody is by me. I wants to be by myself. Jist
let me 'lone for a little while, then I'll talk to you."
I understood the feeling, and complied with her request.
The slave is so distrustful of sympathy, he is so accustomed to
deception, that he feels secure in the indulgence of his grief only when
he is alone. The petted white, who has friends to cluster round him in
the hour of affliction, cannot understand the loneliness and solitude
which the slave covets as a boon.
For several days young master lingered on, declining visibly. The hectic
flush deepened upon his cheek, and the glitter of his eye grew fearfully
bright, and there was that sharp contraction of his features that
denoted the certain approach of death. His cough became low and even
harder, and those dreadful night-sweats increased. He lay in a stupid
state, half insensible from the effects of sedatives. Dr. Mandy, who
visited him three times a day, did not conceal from Mr. Peterkin the
fact of his son's near dissolution.
"Save his life, doctor, and you shall have all I own."
"If my art could do it, sir, I would, without fee, exert myself for his
restoration."
Yet for a poor old negro his art could do nothing unfeed. Do ye wonder
that we are goaded on to acts of desperation, when every day, nay, every
moment, brings to our eyes some injustice that is done us--and all
because our faces are dark?
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