Autobiography of a Female SlaveBrowne, Martha Griffith
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Autobiography of a Female Slave
Browne, Martha Griffith
African American women -- Fiction; Didactic fiction; Enslaved women -- Fiction; Kentucky -- Fiction; Slavery -- Fiction
I had been living with Mr. Peterkin about three years, during which time
I had frequently seen Miss Bradly. One evening when she called (as was
her custom after the adjournment of school), she found, upon inquiry,
that the young ladies had gone out, and would not probably be back for
several hours. She looked a little disconcerted, and seemed doubtful
whether she would go home or remain. I had often observed her
attentively watching me, yet I could not interpret the look; sometimes I
thought it was of deep, earnest pity. Then it appeared only an anxious
curiosity; and as commiseration was a thing which I seldom met with, I
tried to guard my heart against anything like hope or trust; but on this
afternoon I was particularly struck by her strange and irresolute
manner. She turned several times as if to leave, then suddenly stopped,
and, looking very earnestly at me, asked, "Did you say the girls would
not return for several hours?"
Upon receiving an answer in the affirmative, she hesitated a moment, and
then inquired for Mr. Peterkin. He was also from home, and would
probably be absent for a day or two. "Is there no white person about the
place?" she asked, with some trepidation.
"No one is here but the slaves," I replied, perhaps in a sorrowful tone,
for the word "slave" always grated upon my ear, yet I frequently used
it, in obedience to a severe and imperative conventionality.
"Well then, Ann, come and sit down near me; I want to talk with you
awhile."
This surprised me a great deal. I scarcely knew what to do. The very
idea of sitting down to a conversation with a white lady seemed to me
the wildest improbability. A vacant stare was the only answer I could
make. Certainly, I did not dream of her being in earnest.
"Come on, Ann," she said, coaxingly; but, seeing that my amazement
increased, she added, in a more persuasive tone, "Don't be afraid, I am
a friend to the colored race."
This seemed to me the strangest fiction. A white lady, and yet a friend
to the colored race! Oh, impossible! such condescension was unheard of!
What! she a refined woman, with a snowy complexion, to stoop from her
proud elevation to befriend the lowly Ethiopian! Why, she could not, she
dare not! Almost stupefied with amazement, I stood, with my eyes
intently fixed upon her.
"Come, child," she said, in a kind tone, and placing her hand upon my
shoulder, she endeavored to seat me beside her, "look up,--be not
ashamed, for I am truly your friend. Your down-cast look and melancholy
manner have often struck me with sorrow."
To this I could make no reply. Utterance was denied me. My tongue clove
to the roof of my mouth; a thick, filmy veil gathered before my sight;
and there I stood like one turned to stone. But upon being frequently
reassured by her gentle manner and kind words, I at length controlled my
emotions, and, seating myself at her feet, awaited her communication.
"Ann, you are not happy here?"
I said nothing, but she understood my look.
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