Autobiography of a Female SlaveBrowne, Martha Griffith
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Autobiography of a Female Slave
Browne, Martha Griffith
African American women -- Fiction; Didactic fiction; Enslaved women -- Fiction; Kentucky -- Fiction; Slavery -- Fiction
Charley found one or two old books, that he seemed to read and re-read;
indifferent novels, perhaps, that served, at least, to keep down the
ravening tortures of thought. I lent him my Testament, and he read a
great deal in it. He said that he had one, but had left it with his
wife. He was a member of the Methodist Church; had gone on Sunday
afternoons to a school that had been established for the benefit of
colored people, and thus, unknown to his master, had acquired the first
principles of a good education. He could read and write, and was in
possession of the rudiments of arithmetic. He told me that his wife had
not had the opportunities he had, and therefore she was more deficient,
but he added, "she had a great thirst for knowledge, such as I have
never seen excelled, and rarely equalled. I have known her, after the
close of her daily labors, devote the better portion of the night to
study. I gave her all the instruction I could, and she was beginning to
read with considerable accuracy; but all that is over, past and gone
now." And again he ground his teeth fiercely, and a wild, lurid light
gathered in his eye.
This man almost made me oblivious of my own grief, in sympathy for his.
I did all I could by "moral suasion," as the politicians say, to soften
his resentment. I bade him turn his thoughts toward that religion which
he had espoused.
"I have no religion for this," he would bitterly say.
And in truth, I fear me much if the heroism of saints would hold out on
such occasions. There, fastened to that impassioned husband's heart,
playing with its dearest chords, was the fang-like hand of the white
man! Oh, slow tortures! in comparison to which that of Prometheus was
very pleasure. There is no Tartarus like that of wounded, agonized
domestic love! Far away from him, in a lonely cabin, he beheld his
stricken wife and all his "pretty chickens" pining and unprotected.
Slowly, after a few days, he relapsed into that stony sort of despair
that denies itself the gratification of speech. The change was very
painfully visible to me, and I tried, by every artifice, to arouse him;
but I had no power to wake him.
"Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak,
Whispers the o'erfraught heart, and bids it break."
And soon learning this, I left him, a remorseless prey to that "rooted
sorrow" of the brain.
* * * * * * *
One day, as we all sat in the shed-room, engaged at our various
occupations, we were roused by a noise of violent weeping, and something
like a rude scuffle just without the door, when suddenly Atkins entered,
dragging after him, with his hand close about his throat, a poor negro
man, aged and worn, with a head white as cotton.
"Oh, please, Masser, jist let me go back, an' tell de ole 'ooman
farewell, an' I won't ax for any more."
"No, you old rascal, you wants to run away. If you say another word
about the old voman, I'll beat the life out of you."
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