'We part company to-day, brother,' she said. 'We can't be pals no
more--never no more.'
'Sister, I will not be parted from you: I shall follow you.'
'Reia--Hal Aylwin--you knows very well that any man, Gorgio or
Romany, as followed Sinfi Lovell when she told him not, 'ud ketch
a body-blow as wouldn't leave him three hull ribs, nor a ounce o'
wind to bless hisself with.'
'But I am now one of the Lovells, and I shall go with you. I am a
Romany myself--I mean I am becoming more and more of a Romany every
day and every hour. The blood of Fenella Stanley is in us both.'
She looked at me, evidently astonished at the earnestness and the
energy of my tone. Indeed at that moment I felt an alien among
Gorgios.
'I am now one of the Lovells,' I said, 'and I shall go with you.'
'We part company to-night, brother, fare ye well,' she said.
As she stood delivering this speech--her head erect, her eyes
flashing angrily at me, her brown fists tightly clenched, I knew that
further resistance would be futile.
'But now I wants to be left alone,' she said.
She bent her head forward in a listening attitude, and I heard her
murmur, 'I knowed it 'ud come ag'in. A Romany sperrit likes to come
up in the evenin' and smell the heather an' see the shinin' stars
come out.'
While she was speaking, she began to move off between the trees. But
she turned, took hold of both my hands, and gazed into my eyes. Then
she moved away again, and I was beginning to follow her. She turned
and said: 'Don't follow me. There ain't no place for ye among the
Romanies. Go the ways o' the Gorgios, Hal Aylwin, an' let Sinfi
Lovell go hern.'
As I leaned against a tree and watched Sinfi striding through the
grass till she passed out of sight, the entire panorama of my life
passed before me.
'She has left me with a blessing after all,' I said; 'my poor Sinfi
has taught me the lesson that he who would fain be cured of the
disease of a wasting sorrow must burn to ashes Memory. He must flee
Memory and never look back.'
VI
And did I flee Memory? When I re-entered the bungalow next day it was
my intention to leave it and Wales at once and for ever, and indeed
to leave England at once--perhaps for ever, in order to escape from
the unmanning effect of the sorrowful brooding which I knew had
become a habit. 'I will now,' I said, 'try the nepenthe that all my
friends in their letters are urging me to try--I will travel. Yes, I
will go to Japan. My late experiences should teach me that Ja'afar's
"Angel of Memory," who refashioned for him his dead wife out of his
own sorrow and tears, did him an ill service. He who would fain be
cured of the disease of a wasting sorrow should try to flee the
"Angel of Memory," and never look back.'
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