The end of the story was abrupt, and at the time I found it hard to find
extenuating circumstances in the guilt of the girl who had smashed
this boy Harding. She lied to him up to the very moment of his
demobilisation; at least, she gave him no clue to her purpose until
she hit him, as it were, full in the face with a mortal blow to his
happiness.
He had sent her a wire with the one word “Demobilised,” and then had
taken the next train back and a cab from Charing Cross to that house of
his at Rutland Gate.
“Is the mistress well?” he had asked one of the maids when his kit was
handled in the hall.
“The mistress is out, sir,” said the maid, and he remembered afterwards
that she looked queerly at him, with a kind of pity.
There was the usual note waiting for him. Evelyn was “very sorry.” She
hated causing her husband the grief she knew he would feel, but she and
Dick could not do without each other. The war had altered everything,
and many wives to many husbands. She hoped Harding would be happy after
a bit....
Harding was not happy. When he read that note he went a little mad, and
roamed round London with an automatic pistol, determined to kill his
former friend if he could set eyes on him. Fortunately, he did not find
him. Evelyn and Dick had gone off to a village in Devonshire, and after
three days with murder in his heart Harding had been very ill and had
gone into a nursing-home. There, in his weakness, he had, he told me,
“thought things out.” The result of his meditations amounted to no
more than the watchword of many people in years of misery: “_C’est la
guerre!_”
It was the war which had caused his tragedy. It had put too great a
strain on human nature, or at least on human nerves and morals. It
had broken down the conventions and traditions of civilised life. The
Germans had not only destroyed many towns and villages, but many homes
and hearts far from the firing-line. They had let the devil loose.
“Quite a number of my pals,” said Harding, “are in the same boat with
me. They either couldn’t stick their wives, or their wives couldn’t
stick them. It gives one a sense of companionship!”
He smiled in a melancholy way, but then confessed to loneliness--so many
of his real pals had gone west--and asked whether he could call on me
now and then. It was for that reason that he came to my house fairly
often, and sometimes Fortune, who came too at times, made him laugh, as
in the old days.
III
Fortune and I met also in a crowd, but indoors. Brand and Eileen
O’Connor were both to be at one of the evening parties which assembled
every now and then in a flat at Chelsea belonging to Susy Whincop,
designer of stained glass, driver of ambulances for the Scottish Women’s
Convoy, and sympathetic friend before the war of any ardent soul who
grew long hair if a man, short hair if a woman, and had some special
scheme, philosophy, or inspiration for the welfare of humanity.
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