“This is the greatest day of my life! And I am perfectly ashamed
of myself. In spite of my beard and my gig-lamps and my anarchical
appearance, these dear people take me for an English officer and a
fighting hero. And I feel like one. If I saw a German now I truly
believe I should cut his throat. Me--a non-combatant and a man of peace!
I’m horrified at my own blood-thirstiness. The worst of it is I’m
enjoying it. I’m a primitive man for a time, and find it stimulating.
To-morrow I shall repent. These people have suffered hell’s torments. I
can’t understand a word the little old lady is telling me but I’m sure
she’s been through infernal things. And this pretty girl. She’s a peach,
though slightly tuberculous, poor child. My God--how they hate! There is
a stored-up hatred in this town enough to burn up Germany by mental
telepathy. It’s frightening. Hatred and joy, I feel these two passions
like a flame about us. It’s spiritual. It’s transcendental. It’s the
first time I’ve seen a hundred thousand people drunk with joy and hate.
I’m against hate, and yet the sufferings of these people make me see red
so that I want to cut a German throat!”
“You’d stitch it up afterwards, doctor,” I said.
He blinked at me through his spectacles and said: “I hope so. I hope
my instinct would be as right as that. The world will never get forward
till we have killed hatred. That’s my religion.”
“Bandits! Assassins!” grumbled the old lady. “Dirty people!”
“_Vivent les Anglais!_” shouted the crowd, surging about the little man
with the beard.
The American doctor spoke in English in a large explanatory way.
“I’m American. Don’t you go making any mistake. I’m an Uncle Sam. The
Yankee boys are further south and fighting like hell, poor lads. I don’t
deserve any of this ovation, my dears.”
Then in French, with a strong American accent, he shouted: “_Vive la
France!_‘Rah! ‘Rah! ‘Rah!”
“_Merci, merci, mon Général!_” said an old woman, making a grab at the
little doctor’s Sam Brown belt and kissing him on the beard. The crowd
closed round him and bore him away....
I met another of our crowd when I went to a priest’s house in a turning
off the Rue Royale. Pierre Nesle, our _liaison_ officer--a nice simple
fellow, who had always been very civil to me--was talking to the
priest outside his door, and introduced me in a formal way to a tall,
patrician-looking old man in a long black gown. It was the Abbé Bourdin,
well known in Lille as a good priest and a patriot.
“Come indoors, gentlemen,” said the old man. “I will tell you what
happened to us, though it would take four years to tell you all.”
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