However much the fact was disguised by soft phrases, he, the young
Alexander McKirdy, knew full well that the passion was wholly base and
devilish--playing sometimes impish, more often terrible, tricks on those
it lured within its labyrinth; causing men to deviate almost
unconsciously from the paths lying straight before them; generally
injuring their careers, and invariably--and this, to such a nature as
his own, seemed the most tragic thing of all--making, while the spell
was upon the victims, utter fools of them. Above all had he condemned,
with deepest scorn and intolerance--this, doubtless, owing in a measure
to his early religious training--that man who allowed himself to feel
the slightest attraction for a married woman; indeed, for such a one, he
felt nothing but scathing contempt. The whole subject of man's relation
to woman was one on which the doctor had been, even as a very raw and
shy youth, always ready to hold forth, warning and admonishing those
about him, especially his own sentimental countrymen cast up on the
lonely and yet siren-haunted sea of London life.
Then, holding these views more than ever, though perhaps less eager to
discuss them, a chance had brought him to Chancton, there to fall
himself in the same snare which he believed in all good faith so easy to
avoid. After one determined effort to shake himself free, he had bowed
his neck to the yoke, gradually sacrificing all that he had once thought
made life alone worth living to a feeling which he had known to be
unrequited, and which for a time he had believed to be unsuspected by
the object of it.
Who was he, Alexander McKirdy, so he asked himself during those days
when he watched with very mingled feelings Berwick and Barbara--who was
he to jeer, to find fault, even to feel surprised at what had now
befallen James Berwick and Barbara Rebell? And yet, as was still apt to
be his wont, the old Scotchman blamed the woman far more than the
man--for even now, to his mind, man was the victim, woman the Circe
leading him astray. This view angered the mistress of the Priory, but
not even to please Madame Sampiero would the doctor pretend that he
thought otherwise than he did.
"Is this, think you, the first time she soweth destruction?" he once
asked rather sternly. "I tell ye, Madam, she cannot be so simple as ye
take her to be! I grant her Jamie"--falling back in the eagerness of the
discussion on what had been his name for Berwick as a child--"we all
know he's a charmer! But how about that poor stiff loon, Oliver
Boringdon? would you say that there she has not been to blame?"
But the answering murmur was very decided, "I am sure it is the first
time she has sowed destruction, as you call it."
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