Dressed in a white India muslin frock, her long dark hair curled, as was
the fashion in those days, and tied neatly out of the way with a pale
blue ribbon, her unseeing eyes gazing at one of the most beautiful views
in the world, little Barbara Rebell, not for the first time, fell to
wondering why her life was so different from that of the English
children of whom she read in the books her mother had lately sent for
from the home of her own childhood. Even the Fairchilds were a family,
not a solitary little girl; each of the French children she knew had at
least one brother or sister apiece to bear them company, and all through
her thoughts--her disconnected, discontented birthday thoughts--there
ran a thread of uneasy wonder as to why she and her parents were living
here in France instead of in far away England.
Barbara had of late become dimly aware that her mother made no effort to
enter into the eager, cheerful life about her; even after many years
spent entirely in France Mrs. Rebell still spoke French with a certain
difficulty, and she had tacitly refused to form any tie but one of
courteous acquaintance with the few French families with whom--entirely
for the sake of her child, but Barbara did not know that--she had
entered into social relation, using a Protestant banker as a connecting
link.
* * * * *
The summer before her tenth birthday Barbara had overheard some
fragments of a conversation held between two mothers of some of her
little French friends; and the few words, so carelessly uttered, had
roused a passion of emotion in the innocent eavesdropper: the feeling
which most predominated being the unreasoning, pathetic surprise felt by
a childish mind when brought suddenly across anything in the nature of a
masked attack.
"Enfin qu'est que ce Monsieur Rebell a bien pu faire de si terrible?
Pour moi il a un air sinistre, cet homme-là!"
"Peut-être a-t-il tué quelqu'un en duel! Il parait qu'en Angleterre on
est devenu féroce sur ce châpitre-là."
"En tous cas, cette pauvre Madame Rebell est bien jolie, et bien à
plaindre!"
The effect of these few carelessly uttered words had been to transform
the listener from a happy baby into a thoughtful, over-sensitive little
girl. Barbara had felt a wild revolt and indignation in the knowledge
that her parents were being thus discussed--that her father should be
described as "sinister," her mother pitied. Again and again she repeated
to herself the words that she had heard: their meaning had stamped
itself on her mind. Could her father have indeed killed a man in a duel?
To Barbara the thought was at once horrible and fascinating, and she
brooded over it, turning the idea this way and that: the constant
companionship of her mother--for Mrs. Rebell rarely left her alone with
their French servants--having unconsciously taught her a deep and almost
secretive reserve.
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