Country life -- Fiction; Pastoral fiction; Piedmont (U.S. : Region) -- Fiction; Virginia -- Fiction
"Dorinda stopped at Five Oaks until the storm was over," she heard her
mother say to the others; and suddenly, as if the sound had touched some
secret spring in her mind, she became alive again, and everything was
bathed in the thin blue light of that room at Five Oaks. The pain was
more than she could bear. It was more than anybody could be expected to
bear. In a flash of time it became so violent that she jumped up from
her chair, and began walking up and down as if she were in mortal agony.
"What's the matter, daughter? Did you come down on your tooth?" inquired
Mrs. Oakley solicitously.
"No, it isn't that. I don't want any supper," replied the girl, hurrying
out of the room and walking the length of the hall to the front door. "I
must do something," she thought. "If I don't do something, this pain
will go on for ever."
She had crossed the threshold to the porch, when, wheeling abruptly, she
went back into the hall and from the hall into her mother's chamber,
where the family Bible lap open on the table and the big fly was still
knocking against the ceiling. She had not known that flies lived so
long! It seemed an eternity, not a few hours ago, when her mother had
sat there reading the Psalms and the fly had buzzed in the stillness.
The peaceful room, pervaded by the Sabbath lethargy, with the open Bible
waiting for family prayers, and the battered old furniture arranged in
changeless order, seemed to close over her like a trap. "I must do
something, or this misery will never end," she thought again. But there
was nothing that she could do. There would never be anything that she
could do in her life. It was over. Everything was over, and she might
live to be ninety. "And the child coming too." There also she could find
no escape. "No matter what I do, I can change nothing." Something had
caught her. Life had caught her. She could not get away, no matter how
hard she struggled. A drop of blood fell on her fingers, and glancing
into the mirror, she saw that she had bitten her lip until it bled, yet
she had not felt it. Nothing like that, nothing on the outside of
herself, could ever hurt her again. "If I could only do something," she
said in a whisper, and walked from the chamber to the spare room, and
from the spare room, which looked as if it were hiding something, out
into the hall. Suddenly, like a person moving in delirium, she walked
out of the house, and along the path between the pear orchard and the
vegetable garden. The green afterglow had faded; but a sallow moon was
riding high over the big pine, and gave light enough for her to see her
way. Like a wet sheet the twilight folded about her, clinging to her
arms and legs when she tried to shake herself free from it. She would
have moonlight in the woods, and besides she had nothing to fear. A dry
sob broke from her, hurting her throat. You had reached the worst, she
realized, when you had nothing to fear.
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