Country life -- Fiction; Pastoral fiction; Piedmont (U.S. : Region) -- Fiction; Virginia -- Fiction
were no deeper than the light tracks of birds.
"Why did it happen? What was the meaning of it?" she asked dully,
sitting on the side of her bed, with her shoe in her hand. A few hours
ago she had loved Jason; now she loved him no longer. All that had drawn
her to him seemed now to drive her away; all that had been desire had
turned into loathing; all that was glowing with flame was now burned out
to cinders. There were women, she knew, who could love even when they
hated; but she was not one of these. The vein of iron in her nature
would never bend, would never break, would never melt completely in any
furnace. "He is weak and a coward," she thought. "How could I love a
coward?" Yes, how could she love a coward? And, strangely enough, when
she despised him most bitterly, she thought not of the wrong he had done
her, not of his treachery and his betrayal of her love, but of the way
he had looked in the moonlight, with his chalk-white face, his jerking
muscles, and his arm waving with the gestures of an evangelist.
Well, it was all over now. Everything was over but the immediate trouble
that she must face. Memories, impressions, undeveloped sensations that
led to nothing, swarmed upon her from the hidden crevices of her being.
The Old Stage Road. The way it branched at the burned cabin. The blasted
oak with the Gospel sign on it. The clink of the mare's shoes. The
benign faces of Dan and Beersheba as they looked back at her under
bunches of indigo. Work. Never anything but work. Her mother's voice
nagging, always nagging. Coral strands and palm trees and naked black
babies. What was the meaning of it? Jason as he looked last night. Weak,
whining, apologetic, blaming everything and everybody except himself.
His hair plastered in damp streaks on his forehead. His eyes, red and
blinking, as if he had wept. His hands that were never still; nervous
hands, without a firm grip on anything. How she hated him. What had she
ever seen in him to love? Cinders. Nothing left of it but cinders. Not
so much as a spark. Life. That was what it meant. Then, suddenly, the
way he used to look. His eyes when he smiled, crinkling at the corners.
His straight eyebrows brooding like a storm over his brown-black eyes.
The feeling of his hand on her arm. His charm. Yes, his charm that she
had forgotten. Like a breath of air, or a subtle fragrance, she felt his
charm stealing back through her senses, as if minute waves of aromatic
incense were blowing over her nerves. Though she hated him, could so
slight a thing as the memory of his smile awake the familiar vibrations?
Though her mind had broken away from him, was her body still held a
prisoner? And would his power come back always, without warning of its
approach, like the aching of a tooth that one has touched in a sensitive
spot? A few minutes ago she was deadened into the emotional stupor she
called peace. Now, because of a single external image, because of so
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