Country life -- Fiction; Pastoral fiction; Piedmont (U.S. : Region) -- Fiction; Virginia -- Fiction
and she had drifted into the habit of having the family with her at
Sunday dinner. This had gradually become the one abundant meal of the
week, and she and Fluvanna both looked forward to it with the keen
anticipation of deferred appetite.
The work was so exacting and her nerves so blessedly benumbed by toil,
that Dorinda seldom stopped to ask herself if she were satisfied with
her lot. Had the question been put to her, she would probably have
dismissed it with the retort that she "had no time to worry about things
like that." On the surface her days were crowded with more or less
interesting tasks; but in her buried life there were hours when the old
discontent awoke with the autumn wind in the broomsedge. At such moments
she would feel that life had cheated her, and she would long
passionately for something bright and beautiful that she had missed. Not
love again! No, never again the love that she had known! What she longed
for was the something different, the something indestructibly desirable
and satisfying. Then there would return the blind sense of a purpose in
existence which had evaded her search. The encompassing dullness would
melt like a cloud, and she would grasp a meaning beneath the deceptions
and the cruelties of the past. But this feeling was as fugitive as all
others, and when it vanished it left not the glorified horizon, but
simply the long day's work to be done.
Years had passed now, and she had stopped thinking of Jason. Since she
never left the farm, she was spared the accident of a meeting, and she
had excluded him for so long from her consciousness that his memory had
appeared to acquiesce in the banishment. For the first two or three
years after her return, she had lived in dread of seeing him again in
the flesh, or of having his image awake to life in her mind. She had
been afraid to go to sleep, because in her dreams she was still
defenseless against him; and after her love for him had died, her fear
had remained embedded in hatred. But that had passed also, and she had
ceased to remember him, except when Nathan or one of the labourers on
the farm mentioned his name.
"Doctor Stout is taking all Jason's practice," Nathan said one day.
"That comes, I reckon, of trying to please everybody."
"I thought drink was his ruin," Dorinda rejoined indifferently.
"Of course drink helped it along, though it began farther back with his
being so pleasant that you couldn't believe what he said. At first folks
liked it, but after a while they began to see through it. By the way,
his wife has been acting kind of queer. They say she's got a screw loose
somewhere in her brain."
"I know," was all that Dorinda answered, but she thought, "And I once
wished I could be in her place!"
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