Country life -- Fiction; Pastoral fiction; Piedmont (U.S. : Region) -- Fiction; Virginia -- Fiction
Mounted on her white horse, like some mature Joan of Arc, she glanced
down on him. Her face was expressionless but for its usual look of
dauntless fortitude. She was thinking, "At last I shall have to speak to
him, and it makes no difference to me whether I speak to him or not." It
was a quarter of a century since she had driven home with him that
February afternoon. A quarter of a century, and she had not forgotten!
Well, when you have only the solitude to distract you, your memory is
obliged to be long!
"I am not afraid," she replied in level tones, after she had dismounted
and tethered Snowbird to the branch of a tree. "Are you?"
While he could wrap himself in his professional manner, it occurred to
her that he was not without dignity. Even though there were only the
rags of it left, he was less at her mercy than he would have been in the
character of a remembered lover. For an instant it seemed to her that he
waited for her question to sink in. Then he answered with the sound of a
laugh that had been bitten back.
"I? No. What have I to fear?"
Her smile was as sharp as a blade. "There is always something, isn't
there, even if it is only the memory of fear?"
"You think, then, that I was always a coward?" Yes, he was sober enough
now, restrained by those shreds of professional responsibility which was
the only responsibility he had ever acknowledged.
She laughed. "I stopped thinking of you twenty-five years ago."
"I know." He looked as if he were impressed by her words. "You took the
best man, after all. There was more in Nathan than anybody realized."
"Every one says that now."
"Well, it's true even if every one says it. You married a good man."
It was her hour of triumph; and though it was her hour of triumph, she
knew that, like everything else in her life, it had come too late. A
quarter of a century outlasts expectancy. The old pang was dead now, and
with it the old bitterness. It made no difference any longer. Nothing
that he could say or do would make any difference. She had outlived both
love and hatred. She had outlived every emotion toward him except
disgust. That last scene at Five Oaks returned to her, and her lips
twisted with aversion. "Yes, I married a hero," she rejoined, and she
added to herself, "If only Nathan could hear me!"
"You made your life in spite of me. I'm glad of that."
She laughed again. How little men knew of women! Even Nathan, who had
loved her, had never seen her as she was. "Yes, I made my life in spite
of you."
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